Well a busy few weeks for me has just past.
Today I did my race for life at Crystal Palace. I nearly died in that heat! Boy it was very hard work to keep going. My body is not very happy with me today for putting it through that pain in the heat, but at the same time I know its happy. I cried when I started the race as I could not believe I was there actually doing it & then when I ran across the finishing line I cried again. My family thought I had hurt myself which was whyI was crying, but when I explained I was just so proud of myself for doing it they realised I was just emotional. I still cannot believe I did it, but I keep looking at the medal I got & know I did it. I keep thinking that in January 2008 I could barely walk to the end of my road, now I have just completed a 5km ourse & ran about 3-4 km of that! So proud.
The office work is very stressful & I'm now not sure if I could hack doing it full time. I am now only doing 2 days a week in the office & the other 3 days I'll be back in my room with the kids which I am looking forward to. I think this will be better for me.
Weight loss is still going well. I am now at 14 stone 0.4lbs. I have not entered my food into the food diary of my weight loss website for 2 weeks & I'm still loosing weight. This week the eating fruit n veg kinda went out the window, but I still did exercise & water & lost 2.4lbs.
I have been asked by a few to put my menus on here so will do that once a month or so. This month I have planned to eat as follows...
Mondays...
Chicken pasta
Tuna pasta
Tomato pasta with Meatballs
Cheesy pasta & Leaks
Tuesdays...
Chilli con carne
Shepards pie with beans
Spaghetti bolognaise
Lasagne
Wednesdays...
Toad in the hole with beans
Pizza
BBQ pork & peppers
Filled pitta breads
Thursdays...
Chickpea korma curry
Omelette, Jacket potatoe with cheese & beans
Soup & bread
Fridays...
Fish pie & mash
Fish, chips & beans
Burger & chips
Hotdogs with salad
Saturdays...
Tortillas
Sweet n sour chicken with rice
Chicken, Carrot & Potatoe Tikka Masala with Rice
Chicken korma with carrots, potatoes, rice
Sunday...
Roast pork
Roast chicken
Pork, carrots, kidney beans, Onion casserole
Chicken stew
I eat salad with most of my meals too which is filling, so I need less of the above foods alongside salad to fill me up!
If you want more information on the above meals, the ingredients lists or nutritional info I will be putting it all on my website at the following address: http://uk.geocities.com/whatever03uk/food.html
I am still finding it hard to gauge how much I should be cooking for my other half. I try to cook him double what I am eating, but he still moans he is hungry. I think he must have hollow legs. Anyways I will learn eventually so all is good!
Sunday
Wednesday
Day 3 in the office
Well I'm still alive & still wanting to work in the office, so I must be enjoying it. I feel so drained of energy today as I have had 4 people in my office all day. My old Deputy, My new manager, My boss from head office & the volunteer admin person. Talking no stop all day whilst trying to remember to check on staff & keep the nursery running smoothly.
I am doing my first interview tomorrow. Feel a little nervous, but I bet it will feel good being the one doing the interviewing & not the other way round. Then the interviewee is going to be working at the nursery for a trial afternoon to see if she likes it & we can see how she works & if any good. Then I'll need to get feedback from staff & let head office know the feedback. I hate given feedback, as I know how hard it is to get a job if u r a shy person, but I also know how many people we have taken on in the past & turn out to be crap or malicious. "My famous saying goes here!" Got so much other work to do tomorrow as well, so not sure how I'm going to fit it all in, but I'll just prioritise & do the rest on Friday.
More people have noticed my weight loss today. More BIG smiles from me :D
I have been very good this week with weight loss. After my huge junk Saturday I have eaten lots of fruit n veg & seem to be getting obsessed with my scales now. Every morning this week I have weighed myself to see if I am losing & every morning the scales r telling me I am, so I am even more tempted to look tomorrow morning to see if I have lost again. I'll let u know.
I am now back to the weight I was 2 weeks ago. 14 stone 5.6lbs, & I have 2 more days yet til official weigh in day, so I'm happy :)
I asked advice from people on my forum on Sunday. I asked if they thought I should add miles to my running/walking or try to close up my running/walking times as I could run 1/2 mile then need to stop to breathe, not that I was gasping, but I was more frightened that I would do damage if I didn't stop & walk. Anyways they suggested I was running to quick, but I know that is not the case as I would be walking if going any slower. So annoyed with the advice I got, I went for a walk. I went to the park with a pond near me & walked around it 3 times. I then wanted to jog, so I did & I could jog round the whole pond without stopping 1/2 mile. I gave up after 1 lap as I didn't want to over do it as had jogged on the 2 days previous. Anyways I went to another park tonight & jogged 2 miles without stopping. I have now worked out I was not going to fast, but I was using a route that was not good for me. It involved a hill. Which I jogged up & by the time I got to the top my legs were very tired. Anyways I am going to stick to fairly flat land from now on. I tried to run on grass today, but found it very difficult, so think I'll stick to the pavements, eventhough I know grass is better for joints as less impact, but harder for me to run on. I will keep practising on grass aswell though, so hopefully I'll get used to it, but not sure though.
Anyways good nite for now. :)
I am doing my first interview tomorrow. Feel a little nervous, but I bet it will feel good being the one doing the interviewing & not the other way round. Then the interviewee is going to be working at the nursery for a trial afternoon to see if she likes it & we can see how she works & if any good. Then I'll need to get feedback from staff & let head office know the feedback. I hate given feedback, as I know how hard it is to get a job if u r a shy person, but I also know how many people we have taken on in the past & turn out to be crap or malicious. "My famous saying goes here!" Got so much other work to do tomorrow as well, so not sure how I'm going to fit it all in, but I'll just prioritise & do the rest on Friday.
More people have noticed my weight loss today. More BIG smiles from me :D
I have been very good this week with weight loss. After my huge junk Saturday I have eaten lots of fruit n veg & seem to be getting obsessed with my scales now. Every morning this week I have weighed myself to see if I am losing & every morning the scales r telling me I am, so I am even more tempted to look tomorrow morning to see if I have lost again. I'll let u know.
I am now back to the weight I was 2 weeks ago. 14 stone 5.6lbs, & I have 2 more days yet til official weigh in day, so I'm happy :)
I asked advice from people on my forum on Sunday. I asked if they thought I should add miles to my running/walking or try to close up my running/walking times as I could run 1/2 mile then need to stop to breathe, not that I was gasping, but I was more frightened that I would do damage if I didn't stop & walk. Anyways they suggested I was running to quick, but I know that is not the case as I would be walking if going any slower. So annoyed with the advice I got, I went for a walk. I went to the park with a pond near me & walked around it 3 times. I then wanted to jog, so I did & I could jog round the whole pond without stopping 1/2 mile. I gave up after 1 lap as I didn't want to over do it as had jogged on the 2 days previous. Anyways I went to another park tonight & jogged 2 miles without stopping. I have now worked out I was not going to fast, but I was using a route that was not good for me. It involved a hill. Which I jogged up & by the time I got to the top my legs were very tired. Anyways I am going to stick to fairly flat land from now on. I tried to run on grass today, but found it very difficult, so think I'll stick to the pavements, eventhough I know grass is better for joints as less impact, but harder for me to run on. I will keep practising on grass aswell though, so hopefully I'll get used to it, but not sure though.
Anyways good nite for now. :)
Monday
1st day in the office
Well my first day as a deputy/manager went better than I thought it would so I am well chuffed! I started the day by checking that all the staff were ok & general chit chat about the weekend. Then I went into my office & set up my mouse & mouse mat as I hate the one the nursery has with a vengence! After this I thought I'd try n log into the system & play around with it, but I couldn't log in. So had to wait for the technition to come from head office to sort it out. Well he never turned up til the afternoon, so while I was waiting I decided to tidy up the drawers & do bits n bobs within the office. This was good & I got a feel for what needed to be done, etc.
Tomorrow I will be able to get into the system so can play around on that for a while. I have some paperwork that needs to be done also so my day is pretty busy by the looks of things. I could actually just sit around & do nothing but wait for the phone to ring, but I don't think that is fair on the other staff who are working so hard, so I will just find myself things to do.
I did miss the children a little bit today & I know they have found it hard to see me in the office & they are probably wondering why I am not in the room playing with them. I have explained to them that I am going to be in the office for a while, but I'm not sure if they understand or not. Anyways I went in to play with them for a little while this evening as I had done all I could do in the office for the day & I enjoyed that & I think the children did too.
The staff seemed to be more respectful towards me today. Not sure if its coz I had things to talk to them about or if its coz I'm now mangerment they felt they had to, but its cool all the same.
Well I'm actually more tired today from working in the office than I usually get when I look after kids. Perhaps its because I have been talking on the phone lots & I've been working on my own? I don't know. But I'll see what tomorrow brings about & see if theres a pattern. Hopefully I can still work my 10-6 shift as I quite like my lay ins. We'll just have to see.
A little exercise for me today. Walked up hill to work, Walked down hill then along high street before getting on bus, then got of bus a stop early then walked home. I'd say I did a mile in total there. I also walked around the nursery a lot today, but not really counting that as exercise. I stayed within cals today which I'm pleased about. Hopefully I'm on for a loss this week.
People at work have noticed I've lost weight. 4 people told me I look really slim. Big up the slim me smile :) lol That was a positive start to the day, but I can't see it anymore, as I saw it a few weeks ago & don't seem to have changed much since. It could also be that I gained this week so I feel & think I've put on more than I actually have.
Tomorrow I will be able to get into the system so can play around on that for a while. I have some paperwork that needs to be done also so my day is pretty busy by the looks of things. I could actually just sit around & do nothing but wait for the phone to ring, but I don't think that is fair on the other staff who are working so hard, so I will just find myself things to do.
I did miss the children a little bit today & I know they have found it hard to see me in the office & they are probably wondering why I am not in the room playing with them. I have explained to them that I am going to be in the office for a while, but I'm not sure if they understand or not. Anyways I went in to play with them for a little while this evening as I had done all I could do in the office for the day & I enjoyed that & I think the children did too.
The staff seemed to be more respectful towards me today. Not sure if its coz I had things to talk to them about or if its coz I'm now mangerment they felt they had to, but its cool all the same.
Well I'm actually more tired today from working in the office than I usually get when I look after kids. Perhaps its because I have been talking on the phone lots & I've been working on my own? I don't know. But I'll see what tomorrow brings about & see if theres a pattern. Hopefully I can still work my 10-6 shift as I quite like my lay ins. We'll just have to see.
A little exercise for me today. Walked up hill to work, Walked down hill then along high street before getting on bus, then got of bus a stop early then walked home. I'd say I did a mile in total there. I also walked around the nursery a lot today, but not really counting that as exercise. I stayed within cals today which I'm pleased about. Hopefully I'm on for a loss this week.
People at work have noticed I've lost weight. 4 people told me I look really slim. Big up the slim me smile :) lol That was a positive start to the day, but I can't see it anymore, as I saw it a few weeks ago & don't seem to have changed much since. It could also be that I gained this week so I feel & think I've put on more than I actually have.
Sunday
A much better day
Well after yesterday I thought I'd best be good & stick within my calorie allowence. It was easy & I still have 78 cals left. Kinda thinking my body is probably still a lil full from all the cals yesterday, but not sure.
Went out for a walk today. Walked 1 1/2 miles, then ended up running 1/2 mile as my body couldn't take being out & not running. Came home & felt good. I wish I'd of had a bath when I got home as my hips r now sore. Running a bath as I type, so hopefully my muscles will be ok after that. I seem to be exercising my stomach & hip muscles at the moment as that is what hurts now when I go for a run. Its all good as that is where most of the weight on me is so if the muscles there want to work then let them!
I've changed my activity level on my weight loss website now, as I'll be going into the office as of tomorrow & not running round after kids. Looking forward to it, but bit worried as wont be doing so much movement during the day & don't want to put on weight. Oh well less calories should help, but we'll see.
Change of career? Will I cope? Is it going to be boring? What am I supposed to do? I'm going to miss the children? ARGHHHHH! - These are all thoughts going around my head. It is very scary when u have worked in a room looking after children for over 8 years & then u are pulled from that room & expected to run the nursery with no official training. I have been 3rd in charge for 3 years now, so I have some training, but not everything. I know I'll be ok, but its the baby part of me that is scared. Its going to be a challenge & I do like challenges, but if its too big a challenge then I just end up being frustrated & end up in a tantrum worse than the kids! lol Thats just me though & I do have a good support network with staff. We don't have anyone who is really difficult, just a few moany ones whom I am used to putting in their place! So thats going to be ok.
I guess the whole thing I'm scared of is running the place by myself. I have always had the manager/Deputy to turn too when I needed to talk. Now she is going on maternity leave I will need to find someone else to confide in, but I have no idea who as I have not put my personal trust into anyone else before. I'll just have to try it n see what happens.
Anyways off to have my bath then get a good nights sleep before tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Went out for a walk today. Walked 1 1/2 miles, then ended up running 1/2 mile as my body couldn't take being out & not running. Came home & felt good. I wish I'd of had a bath when I got home as my hips r now sore. Running a bath as I type, so hopefully my muscles will be ok after that. I seem to be exercising my stomach & hip muscles at the moment as that is what hurts now when I go for a run. Its all good as that is where most of the weight on me is so if the muscles there want to work then let them!
I've changed my activity level on my weight loss website now, as I'll be going into the office as of tomorrow & not running round after kids. Looking forward to it, but bit worried as wont be doing so much movement during the day & don't want to put on weight. Oh well less calories should help, but we'll see.
Change of career? Will I cope? Is it going to be boring? What am I supposed to do? I'm going to miss the children? ARGHHHHH! - These are all thoughts going around my head. It is very scary when u have worked in a room looking after children for over 8 years & then u are pulled from that room & expected to run the nursery with no official training. I have been 3rd in charge for 3 years now, so I have some training, but not everything. I know I'll be ok, but its the baby part of me that is scared. Its going to be a challenge & I do like challenges, but if its too big a challenge then I just end up being frustrated & end up in a tantrum worse than the kids! lol Thats just me though & I do have a good support network with staff. We don't have anyone who is really difficult, just a few moany ones whom I am used to putting in their place! So thats going to be ok.
I guess the whole thing I'm scared of is running the place by myself. I have always had the manager/Deputy to turn too when I needed to talk. Now she is going on maternity leave I will need to find someone else to confide in, but I have no idea who as I have not put my personal trust into anyone else before. I'll just have to try it n see what happens.
Anyways off to have my bath then get a good nights sleep before tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Saturday
Junk food weekend, smoking & exercise
I have decided to have a weekend off from the dieting as I feel like eating loads of junk food. I am still going to try n do some exercise to burn off some of the cals from affore mention junk, but I wont manage to burn all today, but hopefully I'll burn them tomorrow. So far today I have eaten a roll with butter, an apple, a huge bag of original doritos, 2 chocolate bars, a packet of choc chip cookies & a custard doughnut with Caramel icing on top. I feel full & fat now though, so a walk or jog is in order me thinks & hopefully I'll feel better. I have also had a cigarette today too. I have only had one which I made last over a few hours. Usually by now I'd have had about 7, so 1 isn't bad unless it gets to more than that a day. Think I'll smoke a couple over the weekend then go back to none from Monday. See if that helps. Feel really bad for eaten junk & smoking as I'd done so well so far, but I just have this huge urge to do it. I have not eaten so much junk in one day since Jan 23rd 2008. I guess a lil indulgence isn't bad once in a while is it?
Anyways yesterday's run was fanbloodytastic. I still cannot believe I ran 1 mile without stopping! I'm so proud of myself. On my way back I bumped into an old work collegue I had not seen in years! Turns out she only lives a few roads away from me. Anyways we exchanged numbers & arranged to meet up in a couple of weeks for a drink. She has recently had a baby & wants to get back in shape so I suggested she come out running with me as she is a similar weight as me & we can work together. She said she'd think about it & let me know. This was a nice suprise to bump into her & I hope we keep in contact as she was a good friend when we worked together.
11:50pm
Well after all the junk food I decided to go out for a jog. I did my usual 3.66 miles of jogging then walking. When I got back I had a lovely relaxing bath & read some more of the book I am reading at the moment called Cross by James Patterson. Afterwards I set about making dinner. I wasn't really hungry, but Cian wanted food so I cooked. By the time dinner was ready I was hungry. I made sweet n sour chicken. I fried an onion & chicken in a lil oil. Then added a jar of sweet n sour sauce, some peppers, carrots & Kidney beans & let it simmer for 30 minutes. Cian said his throught was hurting so I liquidised the food into a soup & wow it tasted delicious!
Well my total calorie intake for today was 3226. Double what I should of eaten & 2000 of that was junk! Oh Dear! I guess I will have to do lots of exercise this week to work all that off, but it should be do-able & if anything I should be able to stay the same weight & not gain. Well heres hoping anyways! I did actually mange to get my 5 portions of fruit n veg & 2 litres of water in today too, so I guess its not all bad! :)
Anyways yesterday's run was fanbloodytastic. I still cannot believe I ran 1 mile without stopping! I'm so proud of myself. On my way back I bumped into an old work collegue I had not seen in years! Turns out she only lives a few roads away from me. Anyways we exchanged numbers & arranged to meet up in a couple of weeks for a drink. She has recently had a baby & wants to get back in shape so I suggested she come out running with me as she is a similar weight as me & we can work together. She said she'd think about it & let me know. This was a nice suprise to bump into her & I hope we keep in contact as she was a good friend when we worked together.
11:50pm
Well after all the junk food I decided to go out for a jog. I did my usual 3.66 miles of jogging then walking. When I got back I had a lovely relaxing bath & read some more of the book I am reading at the moment called Cross by James Patterson. Afterwards I set about making dinner. I wasn't really hungry, but Cian wanted food so I cooked. By the time dinner was ready I was hungry. I made sweet n sour chicken. I fried an onion & chicken in a lil oil. Then added a jar of sweet n sour sauce, some peppers, carrots & Kidney beans & let it simmer for 30 minutes. Cian said his throught was hurting so I liquidised the food into a soup & wow it tasted delicious!
Well my total calorie intake for today was 3226. Double what I should of eaten & 2000 of that was junk! Oh Dear! I guess I will have to do lots of exercise this week to work all that off, but it should be do-able & if anything I should be able to stay the same weight & not gain. Well heres hoping anyways! I did actually mange to get my 5 portions of fruit n veg & 2 litres of water in today too, so I guess its not all bad! :)
Friday
I gave in
Well I lasted 128 hours without a cigarette. Then it became too much to cope with, so I smoked a cigarette. I am not going to give up the giving up though & I will start again tomorrow. If I don't manage to last I will get some patches & see if that works.
I did do very well I know, but its having the will power to quit & that just isn't there tonight!
I went back to work today to say goodbye to my Deputy manager & good luck with the birth of her 2nd child. I had a good day despite being told today that I will be running the nursery on my own for 2 weeks until a new manager is starting. I am shitting it I tell ya! I know I'll be fine, but its still a huge thing to have to do & I so don't want to fuck t iup! Well I have the weekend to enjoy first, so I'll think about work on the bus on my way to work on Monday morning.
Cian is working this weekend so I have the house to myself. I've got nothing planned, but it should include some sort of exercise I suppose.
I went out for a run after work tonight. I ran a lot further than usual. I guess this could be because my lungs aren't tight anymore as I have given up smoking. I wish this thought could override the cravings then I'd be able to beat the cravings. Hmmmmm guess I need more time, practice & patience.
I did do very well I know, but its having the will power to quit & that just isn't there tonight!
I went back to work today to say goodbye to my Deputy manager & good luck with the birth of her 2nd child. I had a good day despite being told today that I will be running the nursery on my own for 2 weeks until a new manager is starting. I am shitting it I tell ya! I know I'll be fine, but its still a huge thing to have to do & I so don't want to fuck t iup! Well I have the weekend to enjoy first, so I'll think about work on the bus on my way to work on Monday morning.
Cian is working this weekend so I have the house to myself. I've got nothing planned, but it should include some sort of exercise I suppose.
I went out for a run after work tonight. I ran a lot further than usual. I guess this could be because my lungs aren't tight anymore as I have given up smoking. I wish this thought could override the cravings then I'd be able to beat the cravings. Hmmmmm guess I need more time, practice & patience.
Thursday
92 hours without a cigarette
Who'd of thought I'd be able to last this long?
I'm not sure if I'm pleased with myself or not. I'm indifferent. I guess its going to take a lil while longer to be happy with my progress & I think I'll be happier when the cravings stop.
"Give it time". Cian tells me "Things will get better".
I know he means well & I'll thank him in the long run, but its not what I want to hear right now.
I am still having cravings when I wake up, but I have replaced this craving with breakfast. I can go most of the day now without thinking about cigarettes & I know once I go back to work it will be much easier to cope with as I'll be so busy I wont even notice & I haven't smoked at work for 6 months now anyways, so it will just be a usual day.
I went up to London yesterday for a walk. I walked from London Victoria to Buckingham Palace, then up The Mall to Trafalgar Square, then down to the River Thames, across The Golden Jubilie Bridge, past the London Eye, across Westminister Bridge & up Victoria Street back to Victoria station then home again. It was a random thing to do,but I felt in a random mood. I was fed up of doing the same walks around my way & wanted something different. I couldn't run yesteday as my hip was a lil sore & didn't want to over do it, so decided walking was the next best thing. I felt like a tourist walking around London, but it was cool all the same. I had my map book to guide me & I took a few photos for memoirs. I met up with Cian at Victoria & we went to Pizza Express & had a lovely dinner. Bad for the diet but if u can't be bad sometimes its not worth living. I'll soon find out if it was a bad idea when I get on the scales at the weekend. lol
I went to a friends house last nite & they smoked in front of me & I was surprisingly ok with it. I had a couple of cravings, but managed to override it. Woo Hoo. I can do this. Yes!
Going out for a run today which am looking forward to. Going to try n see if I can run further today as my lungs are pretty clear now from not smoking for 92 hours. I still cannot believe I have lasted this long. But its all good! Will update later on running progress but for now I'll say bon voyage! :)
I'm not sure if I'm pleased with myself or not. I'm indifferent. I guess its going to take a lil while longer to be happy with my progress & I think I'll be happier when the cravings stop.
"Give it time". Cian tells me "Things will get better".
I know he means well & I'll thank him in the long run, but its not what I want to hear right now.
I am still having cravings when I wake up, but I have replaced this craving with breakfast. I can go most of the day now without thinking about cigarettes & I know once I go back to work it will be much easier to cope with as I'll be so busy I wont even notice & I haven't smoked at work for 6 months now anyways, so it will just be a usual day.
I went up to London yesterday for a walk. I walked from London Victoria to Buckingham Palace, then up The Mall to Trafalgar Square, then down to the River Thames, across The Golden Jubilie Bridge, past the London Eye, across Westminister Bridge & up Victoria Street back to Victoria station then home again. It was a random thing to do,but I felt in a random mood. I was fed up of doing the same walks around my way & wanted something different. I couldn't run yesteday as my hip was a lil sore & didn't want to over do it, so decided walking was the next best thing. I felt like a tourist walking around London, but it was cool all the same. I had my map book to guide me & I took a few photos for memoirs. I met up with Cian at Victoria & we went to Pizza Express & had a lovely dinner. Bad for the diet but if u can't be bad sometimes its not worth living. I'll soon find out if it was a bad idea when I get on the scales at the weekend. lol
I went to a friends house last nite & they smoked in front of me & I was surprisingly ok with it. I had a couple of cravings, but managed to override it. Woo Hoo. I can do this. Yes!
Going out for a run today which am looking forward to. Going to try n see if I can run further today as my lungs are pretty clear now from not smoking for 92 hours. I still cannot believe I have lasted this long. But its all good! Will update later on running progress but for now I'll say bon voyage! :)
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