New found confidence

Hiya all.

I seem to have a new confidence about me at the moment. I am a lot happier & I have a new friend. I thought I should try & be more socialable & make new friends. I then got hungry & went to the shop to get some milk so I could have some cereal as that was what I wanted. In the shop a girl stopped me Croydon to no avail. She then asked where I had got my jacket from & I told her I had brought it in Spain. She looked disappointed. Then we got talking about weight & I mentioned I had lost weight & she complimented me on my loss so far. This felt good. Another woman in the shop complimented me also which made me feel even better. After I had brought milk this girl invited me back to hers for a drink. I was a bit nervous & she must of sensed this a she then said I did not have to worry as she was not a lesbian or going to hurt me in anyway. She explained where she lived & then introduced me to her brother & his daughter. I went back to her flat & we sat drinking whisky, smoking & talking til about 1:30am. When I realised the time I said my goodbyes & left. When I got home I phoned her to let her know I had got home safely & she said we must do it again as she feels we could be good friends. This put a smile on my face. I think this is why my confidence has grown. I am getting on better with the people I work with too & am a lot happier at work. I am not so scared all the time too which is also good. Sorry about the lack of punchuation in this today. I am writting what is in my head. I feel excited about life & trust people more than I have ever trusted anyone in my life.

This weekend was spent in Portsmouth. I had a fantastic time. Lots of sun, Sea, Drink & Sex! ;) lol I stayed in a caravan which I found hard to sleep in, but enjoyed it all the same. I ended up bringing half of the beach home with me. lol I collected a bag of shells, pinecones & seaweed to use with the kids at work today on the beach. We walked along the shore at southsea & I couldn't believe how many shells there were washed up on the beach. I have never been anywhere & seen that many shells. They were everywhere! I've washed them all & I will use them this week to do some learning activities with the children. I'm thinking of doing painting with the pinecones. I'll dry the seaweed out & use that & the shells to make a beach with sand for the children to use their imaginations to play with. I'm not sure who'll have more fun the children or me & it'll probably be me! :) lol

I'm loving the summer we are having at the moment. I have discovered that I am happier when I spend time in the sun. I'm not sure if I suffer with SAD, but it seems that way to me at the moment.

I need to go to the doctors as I'm worried abouyt the amount of hair I am losing at the moment. I have heard to could be due to stress. A friend of mine said it could be a deficiency in my body so am am going to the doctors to get some tests done to rule these out. I also want to get my eyes and ears tested to see what state they are in. I will let u know the results when I find them out. Fingers crossed it turns out alright.

Anyways going to bed. Nite Nite. X