Hiya all.
Sorry for not writting anything for a while, I have been busy sorting my life out. It all started when I went to have my hair cut...
'WOW' how much attention am I getting at the moment with my new found confidence, new body and new hair cut? I cannot believe it. I am sociable, friendly, confident. People actually like me and want to talk to me. I need to keep this up. I can talk to strangers. I can deal with all my problems, I can think, I can remember things (this is down to omega 3, 6 and 9 tablets), I have energy, I have a life!! :D
I have been declutering our flat of late too. Cian is now letting me get rid of things that are broken or we haven't used in years. This has made me really happy. Out with the old and in with the new.
Cian was away for 5 weeks, so I had freedom and thought a lot about what I wanted out of life. I enjoyed the 1st week being without him as he was pissing me off. By the 2nd week I really missed him. The weeks after that I still missed him, but I took hold of my life by myself and just got on and did things by myself. I put together a cd tower we got from Ikea which I am proud of.
Work is getting better. I am learning to deal with stress and my manager is helping me to sort out problems I have with staff, etc so am pretty happy with that. :)
Cian is home now so will see what happens. He is starting his own business so things look like they are on the up for us. Visit www.wizardonwheels-croydon.co.uk for more details.
Monday
Sunday
New found confidence
Hiya all.
I seem to have a new confidence about me at the moment. I am a lot happier & I have a new friend. I thought I should try & be more socialable & make new friends. I then got hungry & went to the shop to get some milk so I could have some cereal as that was what I wanted. In the shop a girl stopped me Croydon to no avail. She then asked where I had got my jacket from & I told her I had brought it in Spain. She looked disappointed. Then we got talking about weight & I mentioned I had lost weight & she complimented me on my loss so far. This felt good. Another woman in the shop complimented me also which made me feel even better. After I had brought milk this girl invited me back to hers for a drink. I was a bit nervous & she must of sensed this a she then said I did not have to worry as she was not a lesbian or going to hurt me in anyway. She explained where she lived & then introduced me to her brother & his daughter. I went back to her flat & we sat drinking whisky, smoking & talking til about 1:30am. When I realised the time I said my goodbyes & left. When I got home I phoned her to let her know I had got home safely & she said we must do it again as she feels we could be good friends. This put a smile on my face. I think this is why my confidence has grown. I am getting on better with the people I work with too & am a lot happier at work. I am not so scared all the time too which is also good. Sorry about the lack of punchuation in this today. I am writting what is in my head. I feel excited about life & trust people more than I have ever trusted anyone in my life.
This weekend was spent in Portsmouth. I had a fantastic time. Lots of sun, Sea, Drink & Sex! ;) lol I stayed in a caravan which I found hard to sleep in, but enjoyed it all the same. I ended up bringing half of the beach home with me. lol I collected a bag of shells, pinecones & seaweed to use with the kids at work today on the beach. We walked along the shore at southsea & I couldn't believe how many shells there were washed up on the beach. I have never been anywhere & seen that many shells. They were everywhere! I've washed them all & I will use them this week to do some learning activities with the children. I'm thinking of doing painting with the pinecones. I'll dry the seaweed out & use that & the shells to make a beach with sand for the children to use their imaginations to play with. I'm not sure who'll have more fun the children or me & it'll probably be me! :) lol
I'm loving the summer we are having at the moment. I have discovered that I am happier when I spend time in the sun. I'm not sure if I suffer with SAD, but it seems that way to me at the moment.
I need to go to the doctors as I'm worried abouyt the amount of hair I am losing at the moment. I have heard to could be due to stress. A friend of mine said it could be a deficiency in my body so am am going to the doctors to get some tests done to rule these out. I also want to get my eyes and ears tested to see what state they are in. I will let u know the results when I find them out. Fingers crossed it turns out alright.
Anyways going to bed. Nite Nite. X
I seem to have a new confidence about me at the moment. I am a lot happier & I have a new friend. I thought I should try & be more socialable & make new friends. I then got hungry & went to the shop to get some milk so I could have some cereal as that was what I wanted. In the shop a girl stopped me Croydon to no avail. She then asked where I had got my jacket from & I told her I had brought it in Spain. She looked disappointed. Then we got talking about weight & I mentioned I had lost weight & she complimented me on my loss so far. This felt good. Another woman in the shop complimented me also which made me feel even better. After I had brought milk this girl invited me back to hers for a drink. I was a bit nervous & she must of sensed this a she then said I did not have to worry as she was not a lesbian or going to hurt me in anyway. She explained where she lived & then introduced me to her brother & his daughter. I went back to her flat & we sat drinking whisky, smoking & talking til about 1:30am. When I realised the time I said my goodbyes & left. When I got home I phoned her to let her know I had got home safely & she said we must do it again as she feels we could be good friends. This put a smile on my face. I think this is why my confidence has grown. I am getting on better with the people I work with too & am a lot happier at work. I am not so scared all the time too which is also good. Sorry about the lack of punchuation in this today. I am writting what is in my head. I feel excited about life & trust people more than I have ever trusted anyone in my life.
This weekend was spent in Portsmouth. I had a fantastic time. Lots of sun, Sea, Drink & Sex! ;) lol I stayed in a caravan which I found hard to sleep in, but enjoyed it all the same. I ended up bringing half of the beach home with me. lol I collected a bag of shells, pinecones & seaweed to use with the kids at work today on the beach. We walked along the shore at southsea & I couldn't believe how many shells there were washed up on the beach. I have never been anywhere & seen that many shells. They were everywhere! I've washed them all & I will use them this week to do some learning activities with the children. I'm thinking of doing painting with the pinecones. I'll dry the seaweed out & use that & the shells to make a beach with sand for the children to use their imaginations to play with. I'm not sure who'll have more fun the children or me & it'll probably be me! :) lol
I'm loving the summer we are having at the moment. I have discovered that I am happier when I spend time in the sun. I'm not sure if I suffer with SAD, but it seems that way to me at the moment.
I need to go to the doctors as I'm worried abouyt the amount of hair I am losing at the moment. I have heard to could be due to stress. A friend of mine said it could be a deficiency in my body so am am going to the doctors to get some tests done to rule these out. I also want to get my eyes and ears tested to see what state they are in. I will let u know the results when I find them out. Fingers crossed it turns out alright.
Anyways going to bed. Nite Nite. X
Lots of things
Well a busy few weeks for me has just past.
Today I did my race for life at Crystal Palace. I nearly died in that heat! Boy it was very hard work to keep going. My body is not very happy with me today for putting it through that pain in the heat, but at the same time I know its happy. I cried when I started the race as I could not believe I was there actually doing it & then when I ran across the finishing line I cried again. My family thought I had hurt myself which was whyI was crying, but when I explained I was just so proud of myself for doing it they realised I was just emotional. I still cannot believe I did it, but I keep looking at the medal I got & know I did it. I keep thinking that in January 2008 I could barely walk to the end of my road, now I have just completed a 5km ourse & ran about 3-4 km of that! So proud.
The office work is very stressful & I'm now not sure if I could hack doing it full time. I am now only doing 2 days a week in the office & the other 3 days I'll be back in my room with the kids which I am looking forward to. I think this will be better for me.
Weight loss is still going well. I am now at 14 stone 0.4lbs. I have not entered my food into the food diary of my weight loss website for 2 weeks & I'm still loosing weight. This week the eating fruit n veg kinda went out the window, but I still did exercise & water & lost 2.4lbs.
I have been asked by a few to put my menus on here so will do that once a month or so. This month I have planned to eat as follows...
Mondays...
Chicken pasta
Tuna pasta
Tomato pasta with Meatballs
Cheesy pasta & Leaks
Tuesdays...
Chilli con carne
Shepards pie with beans
Spaghetti bolognaise
Lasagne
Wednesdays...
Toad in the hole with beans
Pizza
BBQ pork & peppers
Filled pitta breads
Thursdays...
Chickpea korma curry
Omelette, Jacket potatoe with cheese & beans
Soup & bread
Fridays...
Fish pie & mash
Fish, chips & beans
Burger & chips
Hotdogs with salad
Saturdays...
Tortillas
Sweet n sour chicken with rice
Chicken, Carrot & Potatoe Tikka Masala with Rice
Chicken korma with carrots, potatoes, rice
Sunday...
Roast pork
Roast chicken
Pork, carrots, kidney beans, Onion casserole
Chicken stew
I eat salad with most of my meals too which is filling, so I need less of the above foods alongside salad to fill me up!
If you want more information on the above meals, the ingredients lists or nutritional info I will be putting it all on my website at the following address: http://uk.geocities.com/whatever03uk/food.html
I am still finding it hard to gauge how much I should be cooking for my other half. I try to cook him double what I am eating, but he still moans he is hungry. I think he must have hollow legs. Anyways I will learn eventually so all is good!
Today I did my race for life at Crystal Palace. I nearly died in that heat! Boy it was very hard work to keep going. My body is not very happy with me today for putting it through that pain in the heat, but at the same time I know its happy. I cried when I started the race as I could not believe I was there actually doing it & then when I ran across the finishing line I cried again. My family thought I had hurt myself which was whyI was crying, but when I explained I was just so proud of myself for doing it they realised I was just emotional. I still cannot believe I did it, but I keep looking at the medal I got & know I did it. I keep thinking that in January 2008 I could barely walk to the end of my road, now I have just completed a 5km ourse & ran about 3-4 km of that! So proud.
The office work is very stressful & I'm now not sure if I could hack doing it full time. I am now only doing 2 days a week in the office & the other 3 days I'll be back in my room with the kids which I am looking forward to. I think this will be better for me.
Weight loss is still going well. I am now at 14 stone 0.4lbs. I have not entered my food into the food diary of my weight loss website for 2 weeks & I'm still loosing weight. This week the eating fruit n veg kinda went out the window, but I still did exercise & water & lost 2.4lbs.
I have been asked by a few to put my menus on here so will do that once a month or so. This month I have planned to eat as follows...
Mondays...
Chicken pasta
Tuna pasta
Tomato pasta with Meatballs
Cheesy pasta & Leaks
Tuesdays...
Chilli con carne
Shepards pie with beans
Spaghetti bolognaise
Lasagne
Wednesdays...
Toad in the hole with beans
Pizza
BBQ pork & peppers
Filled pitta breads
Thursdays...
Chickpea korma curry
Omelette, Jacket potatoe with cheese & beans
Soup & bread
Fridays...
Fish pie & mash
Fish, chips & beans
Burger & chips
Hotdogs with salad
Saturdays...
Tortillas
Sweet n sour chicken with rice
Chicken, Carrot & Potatoe Tikka Masala with Rice
Chicken korma with carrots, potatoes, rice
Sunday...
Roast pork
Roast chicken
Pork, carrots, kidney beans, Onion casserole
Chicken stew
I eat salad with most of my meals too which is filling, so I need less of the above foods alongside salad to fill me up!
If you want more information on the above meals, the ingredients lists or nutritional info I will be putting it all on my website at the following address: http://uk.geocities.com/whatever03uk/food.html
I am still finding it hard to gauge how much I should be cooking for my other half. I try to cook him double what I am eating, but he still moans he is hungry. I think he must have hollow legs. Anyways I will learn eventually so all is good!
Wednesday
Day 3 in the office
Well I'm still alive & still wanting to work in the office, so I must be enjoying it. I feel so drained of energy today as I have had 4 people in my office all day. My old Deputy, My new manager, My boss from head office & the volunteer admin person. Talking no stop all day whilst trying to remember to check on staff & keep the nursery running smoothly.
I am doing my first interview tomorrow. Feel a little nervous, but I bet it will feel good being the one doing the interviewing & not the other way round. Then the interviewee is going to be working at the nursery for a trial afternoon to see if she likes it & we can see how she works & if any good. Then I'll need to get feedback from staff & let head office know the feedback. I hate given feedback, as I know how hard it is to get a job if u r a shy person, but I also know how many people we have taken on in the past & turn out to be crap or malicious. "My famous saying goes here!" Got so much other work to do tomorrow as well, so not sure how I'm going to fit it all in, but I'll just prioritise & do the rest on Friday.
More people have noticed my weight loss today. More BIG smiles from me :D
I have been very good this week with weight loss. After my huge junk Saturday I have eaten lots of fruit n veg & seem to be getting obsessed with my scales now. Every morning this week I have weighed myself to see if I am losing & every morning the scales r telling me I am, so I am even more tempted to look tomorrow morning to see if I have lost again. I'll let u know.
I am now back to the weight I was 2 weeks ago. 14 stone 5.6lbs, & I have 2 more days yet til official weigh in day, so I'm happy :)
I asked advice from people on my forum on Sunday. I asked if they thought I should add miles to my running/walking or try to close up my running/walking times as I could run 1/2 mile then need to stop to breathe, not that I was gasping, but I was more frightened that I would do damage if I didn't stop & walk. Anyways they suggested I was running to quick, but I know that is not the case as I would be walking if going any slower. So annoyed with the advice I got, I went for a walk. I went to the park with a pond near me & walked around it 3 times. I then wanted to jog, so I did & I could jog round the whole pond without stopping 1/2 mile. I gave up after 1 lap as I didn't want to over do it as had jogged on the 2 days previous. Anyways I went to another park tonight & jogged 2 miles without stopping. I have now worked out I was not going to fast, but I was using a route that was not good for me. It involved a hill. Which I jogged up & by the time I got to the top my legs were very tired. Anyways I am going to stick to fairly flat land from now on. I tried to run on grass today, but found it very difficult, so think I'll stick to the pavements, eventhough I know grass is better for joints as less impact, but harder for me to run on. I will keep practising on grass aswell though, so hopefully I'll get used to it, but not sure though.
Anyways good nite for now. :)
I am doing my first interview tomorrow. Feel a little nervous, but I bet it will feel good being the one doing the interviewing & not the other way round. Then the interviewee is going to be working at the nursery for a trial afternoon to see if she likes it & we can see how she works & if any good. Then I'll need to get feedback from staff & let head office know the feedback. I hate given feedback, as I know how hard it is to get a job if u r a shy person, but I also know how many people we have taken on in the past & turn out to be crap or malicious. "My famous saying goes here!" Got so much other work to do tomorrow as well, so not sure how I'm going to fit it all in, but I'll just prioritise & do the rest on Friday.
More people have noticed my weight loss today. More BIG smiles from me :D
I have been very good this week with weight loss. After my huge junk Saturday I have eaten lots of fruit n veg & seem to be getting obsessed with my scales now. Every morning this week I have weighed myself to see if I am losing & every morning the scales r telling me I am, so I am even more tempted to look tomorrow morning to see if I have lost again. I'll let u know.
I am now back to the weight I was 2 weeks ago. 14 stone 5.6lbs, & I have 2 more days yet til official weigh in day, so I'm happy :)
I asked advice from people on my forum on Sunday. I asked if they thought I should add miles to my running/walking or try to close up my running/walking times as I could run 1/2 mile then need to stop to breathe, not that I was gasping, but I was more frightened that I would do damage if I didn't stop & walk. Anyways they suggested I was running to quick, but I know that is not the case as I would be walking if going any slower. So annoyed with the advice I got, I went for a walk. I went to the park with a pond near me & walked around it 3 times. I then wanted to jog, so I did & I could jog round the whole pond without stopping 1/2 mile. I gave up after 1 lap as I didn't want to over do it as had jogged on the 2 days previous. Anyways I went to another park tonight & jogged 2 miles without stopping. I have now worked out I was not going to fast, but I was using a route that was not good for me. It involved a hill. Which I jogged up & by the time I got to the top my legs were very tired. Anyways I am going to stick to fairly flat land from now on. I tried to run on grass today, but found it very difficult, so think I'll stick to the pavements, eventhough I know grass is better for joints as less impact, but harder for me to run on. I will keep practising on grass aswell though, so hopefully I'll get used to it, but not sure though.
Anyways good nite for now. :)
Monday
1st day in the office
Well my first day as a deputy/manager went better than I thought it would so I am well chuffed! I started the day by checking that all the staff were ok & general chit chat about the weekend. Then I went into my office & set up my mouse & mouse mat as I hate the one the nursery has with a vengence! After this I thought I'd try n log into the system & play around with it, but I couldn't log in. So had to wait for the technition to come from head office to sort it out. Well he never turned up til the afternoon, so while I was waiting I decided to tidy up the drawers & do bits n bobs within the office. This was good & I got a feel for what needed to be done, etc.
Tomorrow I will be able to get into the system so can play around on that for a while. I have some paperwork that needs to be done also so my day is pretty busy by the looks of things. I could actually just sit around & do nothing but wait for the phone to ring, but I don't think that is fair on the other staff who are working so hard, so I will just find myself things to do.
I did miss the children a little bit today & I know they have found it hard to see me in the office & they are probably wondering why I am not in the room playing with them. I have explained to them that I am going to be in the office for a while, but I'm not sure if they understand or not. Anyways I went in to play with them for a little while this evening as I had done all I could do in the office for the day & I enjoyed that & I think the children did too.
The staff seemed to be more respectful towards me today. Not sure if its coz I had things to talk to them about or if its coz I'm now mangerment they felt they had to, but its cool all the same.
Well I'm actually more tired today from working in the office than I usually get when I look after kids. Perhaps its because I have been talking on the phone lots & I've been working on my own? I don't know. But I'll see what tomorrow brings about & see if theres a pattern. Hopefully I can still work my 10-6 shift as I quite like my lay ins. We'll just have to see.
A little exercise for me today. Walked up hill to work, Walked down hill then along high street before getting on bus, then got of bus a stop early then walked home. I'd say I did a mile in total there. I also walked around the nursery a lot today, but not really counting that as exercise. I stayed within cals today which I'm pleased about. Hopefully I'm on for a loss this week.
People at work have noticed I've lost weight. 4 people told me I look really slim. Big up the slim me smile :) lol That was a positive start to the day, but I can't see it anymore, as I saw it a few weeks ago & don't seem to have changed much since. It could also be that I gained this week so I feel & think I've put on more than I actually have.
Tomorrow I will be able to get into the system so can play around on that for a while. I have some paperwork that needs to be done also so my day is pretty busy by the looks of things. I could actually just sit around & do nothing but wait for the phone to ring, but I don't think that is fair on the other staff who are working so hard, so I will just find myself things to do.
I did miss the children a little bit today & I know they have found it hard to see me in the office & they are probably wondering why I am not in the room playing with them. I have explained to them that I am going to be in the office for a while, but I'm not sure if they understand or not. Anyways I went in to play with them for a little while this evening as I had done all I could do in the office for the day & I enjoyed that & I think the children did too.
The staff seemed to be more respectful towards me today. Not sure if its coz I had things to talk to them about or if its coz I'm now mangerment they felt they had to, but its cool all the same.
Well I'm actually more tired today from working in the office than I usually get when I look after kids. Perhaps its because I have been talking on the phone lots & I've been working on my own? I don't know. But I'll see what tomorrow brings about & see if theres a pattern. Hopefully I can still work my 10-6 shift as I quite like my lay ins. We'll just have to see.
A little exercise for me today. Walked up hill to work, Walked down hill then along high street before getting on bus, then got of bus a stop early then walked home. I'd say I did a mile in total there. I also walked around the nursery a lot today, but not really counting that as exercise. I stayed within cals today which I'm pleased about. Hopefully I'm on for a loss this week.
People at work have noticed I've lost weight. 4 people told me I look really slim. Big up the slim me smile :) lol That was a positive start to the day, but I can't see it anymore, as I saw it a few weeks ago & don't seem to have changed much since. It could also be that I gained this week so I feel & think I've put on more than I actually have.
Sunday
A much better day
Well after yesterday I thought I'd best be good & stick within my calorie allowence. It was easy & I still have 78 cals left. Kinda thinking my body is probably still a lil full from all the cals yesterday, but not sure.
Went out for a walk today. Walked 1 1/2 miles, then ended up running 1/2 mile as my body couldn't take being out & not running. Came home & felt good. I wish I'd of had a bath when I got home as my hips r now sore. Running a bath as I type, so hopefully my muscles will be ok after that. I seem to be exercising my stomach & hip muscles at the moment as that is what hurts now when I go for a run. Its all good as that is where most of the weight on me is so if the muscles there want to work then let them!
I've changed my activity level on my weight loss website now, as I'll be going into the office as of tomorrow & not running round after kids. Looking forward to it, but bit worried as wont be doing so much movement during the day & don't want to put on weight. Oh well less calories should help, but we'll see.
Change of career? Will I cope? Is it going to be boring? What am I supposed to do? I'm going to miss the children? ARGHHHHH! - These are all thoughts going around my head. It is very scary when u have worked in a room looking after children for over 8 years & then u are pulled from that room & expected to run the nursery with no official training. I have been 3rd in charge for 3 years now, so I have some training, but not everything. I know I'll be ok, but its the baby part of me that is scared. Its going to be a challenge & I do like challenges, but if its too big a challenge then I just end up being frustrated & end up in a tantrum worse than the kids! lol Thats just me though & I do have a good support network with staff. We don't have anyone who is really difficult, just a few moany ones whom I am used to putting in their place! So thats going to be ok.
I guess the whole thing I'm scared of is running the place by myself. I have always had the manager/Deputy to turn too when I needed to talk. Now she is going on maternity leave I will need to find someone else to confide in, but I have no idea who as I have not put my personal trust into anyone else before. I'll just have to try it n see what happens.
Anyways off to have my bath then get a good nights sleep before tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Went out for a walk today. Walked 1 1/2 miles, then ended up running 1/2 mile as my body couldn't take being out & not running. Came home & felt good. I wish I'd of had a bath when I got home as my hips r now sore. Running a bath as I type, so hopefully my muscles will be ok after that. I seem to be exercising my stomach & hip muscles at the moment as that is what hurts now when I go for a run. Its all good as that is where most of the weight on me is so if the muscles there want to work then let them!
I've changed my activity level on my weight loss website now, as I'll be going into the office as of tomorrow & not running round after kids. Looking forward to it, but bit worried as wont be doing so much movement during the day & don't want to put on weight. Oh well less calories should help, but we'll see.
Change of career? Will I cope? Is it going to be boring? What am I supposed to do? I'm going to miss the children? ARGHHHHH! - These are all thoughts going around my head. It is very scary when u have worked in a room looking after children for over 8 years & then u are pulled from that room & expected to run the nursery with no official training. I have been 3rd in charge for 3 years now, so I have some training, but not everything. I know I'll be ok, but its the baby part of me that is scared. Its going to be a challenge & I do like challenges, but if its too big a challenge then I just end up being frustrated & end up in a tantrum worse than the kids! lol Thats just me though & I do have a good support network with staff. We don't have anyone who is really difficult, just a few moany ones whom I am used to putting in their place! So thats going to be ok.
I guess the whole thing I'm scared of is running the place by myself. I have always had the manager/Deputy to turn too when I needed to talk. Now she is going on maternity leave I will need to find someone else to confide in, but I have no idea who as I have not put my personal trust into anyone else before. I'll just have to try it n see what happens.
Anyways off to have my bath then get a good nights sleep before tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Saturday
Junk food weekend, smoking & exercise
I have decided to have a weekend off from the dieting as I feel like eating loads of junk food. I am still going to try n do some exercise to burn off some of the cals from affore mention junk, but I wont manage to burn all today, but hopefully I'll burn them tomorrow. So far today I have eaten a roll with butter, an apple, a huge bag of original doritos, 2 chocolate bars, a packet of choc chip cookies & a custard doughnut with Caramel icing on top. I feel full & fat now though, so a walk or jog is in order me thinks & hopefully I'll feel better. I have also had a cigarette today too. I have only had one which I made last over a few hours. Usually by now I'd have had about 7, so 1 isn't bad unless it gets to more than that a day. Think I'll smoke a couple over the weekend then go back to none from Monday. See if that helps. Feel really bad for eaten junk & smoking as I'd done so well so far, but I just have this huge urge to do it. I have not eaten so much junk in one day since Jan 23rd 2008. I guess a lil indulgence isn't bad once in a while is it?
Anyways yesterday's run was fanbloodytastic. I still cannot believe I ran 1 mile without stopping! I'm so proud of myself. On my way back I bumped into an old work collegue I had not seen in years! Turns out she only lives a few roads away from me. Anyways we exchanged numbers & arranged to meet up in a couple of weeks for a drink. She has recently had a baby & wants to get back in shape so I suggested she come out running with me as she is a similar weight as me & we can work together. She said she'd think about it & let me know. This was a nice suprise to bump into her & I hope we keep in contact as she was a good friend when we worked together.
11:50pm
Well after all the junk food I decided to go out for a jog. I did my usual 3.66 miles of jogging then walking. When I got back I had a lovely relaxing bath & read some more of the book I am reading at the moment called Cross by James Patterson. Afterwards I set about making dinner. I wasn't really hungry, but Cian wanted food so I cooked. By the time dinner was ready I was hungry. I made sweet n sour chicken. I fried an onion & chicken in a lil oil. Then added a jar of sweet n sour sauce, some peppers, carrots & Kidney beans & let it simmer for 30 minutes. Cian said his throught was hurting so I liquidised the food into a soup & wow it tasted delicious!
Well my total calorie intake for today was 3226. Double what I should of eaten & 2000 of that was junk! Oh Dear! I guess I will have to do lots of exercise this week to work all that off, but it should be do-able & if anything I should be able to stay the same weight & not gain. Well heres hoping anyways! I did actually mange to get my 5 portions of fruit n veg & 2 litres of water in today too, so I guess its not all bad! :)
Anyways yesterday's run was fanbloodytastic. I still cannot believe I ran 1 mile without stopping! I'm so proud of myself. On my way back I bumped into an old work collegue I had not seen in years! Turns out she only lives a few roads away from me. Anyways we exchanged numbers & arranged to meet up in a couple of weeks for a drink. She has recently had a baby & wants to get back in shape so I suggested she come out running with me as she is a similar weight as me & we can work together. She said she'd think about it & let me know. This was a nice suprise to bump into her & I hope we keep in contact as she was a good friend when we worked together.
11:50pm
Well after all the junk food I decided to go out for a jog. I did my usual 3.66 miles of jogging then walking. When I got back I had a lovely relaxing bath & read some more of the book I am reading at the moment called Cross by James Patterson. Afterwards I set about making dinner. I wasn't really hungry, but Cian wanted food so I cooked. By the time dinner was ready I was hungry. I made sweet n sour chicken. I fried an onion & chicken in a lil oil. Then added a jar of sweet n sour sauce, some peppers, carrots & Kidney beans & let it simmer for 30 minutes. Cian said his throught was hurting so I liquidised the food into a soup & wow it tasted delicious!
Well my total calorie intake for today was 3226. Double what I should of eaten & 2000 of that was junk! Oh Dear! I guess I will have to do lots of exercise this week to work all that off, but it should be do-able & if anything I should be able to stay the same weight & not gain. Well heres hoping anyways! I did actually mange to get my 5 portions of fruit n veg & 2 litres of water in today too, so I guess its not all bad! :)
Friday
I gave in
Well I lasted 128 hours without a cigarette. Then it became too much to cope with, so I smoked a cigarette. I am not going to give up the giving up though & I will start again tomorrow. If I don't manage to last I will get some patches & see if that works.
I did do very well I know, but its having the will power to quit & that just isn't there tonight!
I went back to work today to say goodbye to my Deputy manager & good luck with the birth of her 2nd child. I had a good day despite being told today that I will be running the nursery on my own for 2 weeks until a new manager is starting. I am shitting it I tell ya! I know I'll be fine, but its still a huge thing to have to do & I so don't want to fuck t iup! Well I have the weekend to enjoy first, so I'll think about work on the bus on my way to work on Monday morning.
Cian is working this weekend so I have the house to myself. I've got nothing planned, but it should include some sort of exercise I suppose.
I went out for a run after work tonight. I ran a lot further than usual. I guess this could be because my lungs aren't tight anymore as I have given up smoking. I wish this thought could override the cravings then I'd be able to beat the cravings. Hmmmmm guess I need more time, practice & patience.
I did do very well I know, but its having the will power to quit & that just isn't there tonight!
I went back to work today to say goodbye to my Deputy manager & good luck with the birth of her 2nd child. I had a good day despite being told today that I will be running the nursery on my own for 2 weeks until a new manager is starting. I am shitting it I tell ya! I know I'll be fine, but its still a huge thing to have to do & I so don't want to fuck t iup! Well I have the weekend to enjoy first, so I'll think about work on the bus on my way to work on Monday morning.
Cian is working this weekend so I have the house to myself. I've got nothing planned, but it should include some sort of exercise I suppose.
I went out for a run after work tonight. I ran a lot further than usual. I guess this could be because my lungs aren't tight anymore as I have given up smoking. I wish this thought could override the cravings then I'd be able to beat the cravings. Hmmmmm guess I need more time, practice & patience.
Thursday
92 hours without a cigarette
Who'd of thought I'd be able to last this long?
I'm not sure if I'm pleased with myself or not. I'm indifferent. I guess its going to take a lil while longer to be happy with my progress & I think I'll be happier when the cravings stop.
"Give it time". Cian tells me "Things will get better".
I know he means well & I'll thank him in the long run, but its not what I want to hear right now.
I am still having cravings when I wake up, but I have replaced this craving with breakfast. I can go most of the day now without thinking about cigarettes & I know once I go back to work it will be much easier to cope with as I'll be so busy I wont even notice & I haven't smoked at work for 6 months now anyways, so it will just be a usual day.
I went up to London yesterday for a walk. I walked from London Victoria to Buckingham Palace, then up The Mall to Trafalgar Square, then down to the River Thames, across The Golden Jubilie Bridge, past the London Eye, across Westminister Bridge & up Victoria Street back to Victoria station then home again. It was a random thing to do,but I felt in a random mood. I was fed up of doing the same walks around my way & wanted something different. I couldn't run yesteday as my hip was a lil sore & didn't want to over do it, so decided walking was the next best thing. I felt like a tourist walking around London, but it was cool all the same. I had my map book to guide me & I took a few photos for memoirs. I met up with Cian at Victoria & we went to Pizza Express & had a lovely dinner. Bad for the diet but if u can't be bad sometimes its not worth living. I'll soon find out if it was a bad idea when I get on the scales at the weekend. lol
I went to a friends house last nite & they smoked in front of me & I was surprisingly ok with it. I had a couple of cravings, but managed to override it. Woo Hoo. I can do this. Yes!
Going out for a run today which am looking forward to. Going to try n see if I can run further today as my lungs are pretty clear now from not smoking for 92 hours. I still cannot believe I have lasted this long. But its all good! Will update later on running progress but for now I'll say bon voyage! :)
I'm not sure if I'm pleased with myself or not. I'm indifferent. I guess its going to take a lil while longer to be happy with my progress & I think I'll be happier when the cravings stop.
"Give it time". Cian tells me "Things will get better".
I know he means well & I'll thank him in the long run, but its not what I want to hear right now.
I am still having cravings when I wake up, but I have replaced this craving with breakfast. I can go most of the day now without thinking about cigarettes & I know once I go back to work it will be much easier to cope with as I'll be so busy I wont even notice & I haven't smoked at work for 6 months now anyways, so it will just be a usual day.
I went up to London yesterday for a walk. I walked from London Victoria to Buckingham Palace, then up The Mall to Trafalgar Square, then down to the River Thames, across The Golden Jubilie Bridge, past the London Eye, across Westminister Bridge & up Victoria Street back to Victoria station then home again. It was a random thing to do,but I felt in a random mood. I was fed up of doing the same walks around my way & wanted something different. I couldn't run yesteday as my hip was a lil sore & didn't want to over do it, so decided walking was the next best thing. I felt like a tourist walking around London, but it was cool all the same. I had my map book to guide me & I took a few photos for memoirs. I met up with Cian at Victoria & we went to Pizza Express & had a lovely dinner. Bad for the diet but if u can't be bad sometimes its not worth living. I'll soon find out if it was a bad idea when I get on the scales at the weekend. lol
I went to a friends house last nite & they smoked in front of me & I was surprisingly ok with it. I had a couple of cravings, but managed to override it. Woo Hoo. I can do this. Yes!
Going out for a run today which am looking forward to. Going to try n see if I can run further today as my lungs are pretty clear now from not smoking for 92 hours. I still cannot believe I have lasted this long. But its all good! Will update later on running progress but for now I'll say bon voyage! :)
Tuesday
No cigarettes for over 48 hours.
Woo Hoo. I would just like to congratulate myself for making it over 48 hours without a cigarette. It has been a really hard struggle, but I have made it this far. I still want a cigarette & these cravings don't seem to be going away as quickly as I had hoped they would, but they r getting easier to cope with & it is getting easier to take my mind off having a cigarette. I have kinda ditched the diet for today as I am starving. I have done exercise so u could say I have earned them, but I have eaten 1600 calories already & I haven't eaten dinner yet! Oh Well. Guess I'll earn back most of the cals once I am back at work, but for now I am hungry so I'm just going to eat until I am no longer hungry & then worry about it afterwards. I know thats not such a good thing to do, but until I stop craving, my body will not stop wanting food. I am trying to eat fruit as snacks though, so I'm filling myself up on healthy food, but its not working when I have Cian's chocolate. crisps & biscuits sitting in the kitchen shouting "eat me", "eat me", "EAT ME"! I have tried going out for walks, which takes my mind off food & cigarettes, but my legs r now sore from the walk/run I did an hour ago that I think that is out of the question. So I am sitting here typing this in the hope it will help.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh! I want a cigarette.
Deep breath in. Hold it. Now breathe out. And again.
Thats better. I have found that breathing through the cravings works well for me. So have been doing that today.
Nope its got bad again. Think I might end up giving up soon. Better phone Cian to speak to him. Maybe I'll do some housework. Do some puzzles, etc. Not sure. Going insane. Well maybe not quite yet, but soon. Typing is not really helping, coz I'm writting about cigarettes, so its keeping it in my head. Ok now I have established that, I will go & find something else to do. Next time I have cravings remind me not to come on here & write about them. lol
Bye for now.
Its now 11:30pm & I have survived the day. I have eaten like a pig. I have exercised a lil. I over rode the cravings & the worse ones r after I eat, which is why my brain told me to eat so much to try n get me to cave it, but I did not cave in to cigarettes. This has been the longest 2 days of my life so far. Hopefully tomorrow will be easier & I can last as well as I have done today. It actually feels like I have not had a cigarette for weeks not days. Which must be a good sign right?
I have a cold now. Coughing & sneezing all day long. Don't feel ill though. Just got bit of sore nose where I have wiped it so much & cannot taste anything either so eaten all the foods I hate today so could not taste them! Hope my taste buds come back soon & my nose gets better.
Good Nite Everyone! :)
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh! I want a cigarette.
Deep breath in. Hold it. Now breathe out. And again.
Thats better. I have found that breathing through the cravings works well for me. So have been doing that today.
Nope its got bad again. Think I might end up giving up soon. Better phone Cian to speak to him. Maybe I'll do some housework. Do some puzzles, etc. Not sure. Going insane. Well maybe not quite yet, but soon. Typing is not really helping, coz I'm writting about cigarettes, so its keeping it in my head. Ok now I have established that, I will go & find something else to do. Next time I have cravings remind me not to come on here & write about them. lol
Bye for now.
Its now 11:30pm & I have survived the day. I have eaten like a pig. I have exercised a lil. I over rode the cravings & the worse ones r after I eat, which is why my brain told me to eat so much to try n get me to cave it, but I did not cave in to cigarettes. This has been the longest 2 days of my life so far. Hopefully tomorrow will be easier & I can last as well as I have done today. It actually feels like I have not had a cigarette for weeks not days. Which must be a good sign right?
I have a cold now. Coughing & sneezing all day long. Don't feel ill though. Just got bit of sore nose where I have wiped it so much & cannot taste anything either so eaten all the foods I hate today so could not taste them! Hope my taste buds come back soon & my nose gets better.
Good Nite Everyone! :)
Monday
I have given up smoking
Woo Hoo! I finally came to my senses & decided that it is now time for me to give up smoking. Its been 13 hours now & although I have had these huge mothafucker cravings I have managed to over ride them & now I'm laughing. I didn't have a particularly good nites sleep as I was craving & dreaming of cigarettes, but I am not going to give in. I have will power. I also need to remember that my lungs want oxygen in them, so I can run which I really enjoy. So I have printed out some signs to remind me why I am not smoking & it seems to be working.
I am craving cigarettes all the time now, but its easier to live with than yesterday. Just eaten Breakfast & boi do I want a cigarette. So the after food cravings aren't under control yet, but they will be soon. :D
I'll keep u updated on my progress.
I went out for a run yesterday & boi did it feel good. I love running now as I can really see the progress I am making with each day & week that goes by. 12 weeks ago I could barely walk to the end of my road let alone run/walk nearly 4 miles which I can do now. I cannot run more than 1/4 mile before I have to stop & walk for 1/4 mile then once I get my breath back I run 1/4 mile again. This is my training programme so far & with each week that goes past I am improving on this. I am aiming to be able to run/walk 26 miles eventually & when I get to this target I will know I am ready for the London Marathon! It has been a dream of mine to do it for years & now I have finally figured out how to go about training & loosing weight for it. Not sure when I will be at this stage, but I'm kinding hoping it will be next year, so I can enter the 2010 race. With a target time of 6 hours. Lets just see what happens.
Thinking of adding more variety into my exercise plan, as running is going to get boring soon. I cannot afford to join a gym nor do I particaulary want to at this stage in time, but I do like swimming. I need to buy a new swimming costume as my old one is now too big & I will be frightened that my boobs will fall out if I wear it. So on pay day I will be making a trip to the shops to look for & buy a new swimming costume, so I can then go swimming once a week. There are woman only sessions which will be the best I think or maybe the adult only sessions would be ok. I don't know. Need to check out the local pool for times & then go to a few sessions to find out which one suits me best. Looking forward to it already.
I so want a cigarette! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!
Its gone now! Woo Hoo! lol
Is this how its going to be all day??!! OMG
By the end of the day I know I'll be ok. Time heals all wounds & all that! But for now the day seems really long, but I am going to try n take each hour as it comes. I might be back later to post on here if it gets too much!
Its now 4pm & I have survived most of the day. My only problem is I am hungry. I still have another 200 calories to play with today, but want to save them for after dinner incase I want ice cream or a cup of hot chocolate. I am going to watch a film to try n take my mind off smoking & food.
Its now 7:20pm & I am starving. I decided to use the calories & ate my ice cream. I watched the film & after I went for a walk for 45 mins. Now I'm home with a small amount of cravings, but I am just telling myself no & it seems to be working. I'm going to cook dinner soon so that should take my mind off cigarettes & food until its ready that is! Tonight I am having tuna pasta bake with Garlic bread & Lettuce - Yup I am still eating Lettuce with every evening meal! :)
I am craving cigarettes all the time now, but its easier to live with than yesterday. Just eaten Breakfast & boi do I want a cigarette. So the after food cravings aren't under control yet, but they will be soon. :D
I'll keep u updated on my progress.
I went out for a run yesterday & boi did it feel good. I love running now as I can really see the progress I am making with each day & week that goes by. 12 weeks ago I could barely walk to the end of my road let alone run/walk nearly 4 miles which I can do now. I cannot run more than 1/4 mile before I have to stop & walk for 1/4 mile then once I get my breath back I run 1/4 mile again. This is my training programme so far & with each week that goes past I am improving on this. I am aiming to be able to run/walk 26 miles eventually & when I get to this target I will know I am ready for the London Marathon! It has been a dream of mine to do it for years & now I have finally figured out how to go about training & loosing weight for it. Not sure when I will be at this stage, but I'm kinding hoping it will be next year, so I can enter the 2010 race. With a target time of 6 hours. Lets just see what happens.
Thinking of adding more variety into my exercise plan, as running is going to get boring soon. I cannot afford to join a gym nor do I particaulary want to at this stage in time, but I do like swimming. I need to buy a new swimming costume as my old one is now too big & I will be frightened that my boobs will fall out if I wear it. So on pay day I will be making a trip to the shops to look for & buy a new swimming costume, so I can then go swimming once a week. There are woman only sessions which will be the best I think or maybe the adult only sessions would be ok. I don't know. Need to check out the local pool for times & then go to a few sessions to find out which one suits me best. Looking forward to it already.
I so want a cigarette! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!
Its gone now! Woo Hoo! lol
Is this how its going to be all day??!! OMG
By the end of the day I know I'll be ok. Time heals all wounds & all that! But for now the day seems really long, but I am going to try n take each hour as it comes. I might be back later to post on here if it gets too much!
Its now 4pm & I have survived most of the day. My only problem is I am hungry. I still have another 200 calories to play with today, but want to save them for after dinner incase I want ice cream or a cup of hot chocolate. I am going to watch a film to try n take my mind off smoking & food.
Its now 7:20pm & I am starving. I decided to use the calories & ate my ice cream. I watched the film & after I went for a walk for 45 mins. Now I'm home with a small amount of cravings, but I am just telling myself no & it seems to be working. I'm going to cook dinner soon so that should take my mind off cigarettes & food until its ready that is! Tonight I am having tuna pasta bake with Garlic bread & Lettuce - Yup I am still eating Lettuce with every evening meal! :)
Saturday
Chocolate never tasted so good!
I decided to make Friday my day for eating chocolate after reading DietGirl's blog. I managed to hold out eating chocolate all week & then when yesterday came I brought myself a 35g bar of Cadburys dairy milk bubbly. I waited til I had had my dinner & then I sat down to enjoy it. I enjoyed every last crumb. Much better than I usually enjoy chocolate. I think it was because I was looking forawrd to eating it & I had done well during the week to stick within my calories everyday.
I weighed in this morning & I've lost another 2.6lbs taking me to 14 stone 5.6lbs. RESULT! :D Always good to get a loss on the scales me thinks & it motivates me even more.
Had a huge bowl of fruit & yogurt for lunch & I feel so healthy & good. I can start to see myself in the mirror now & I also have a natural smile rather than trying to fake it when people say 'smile'.
All in all a good week for me last week & hopefully an even better one this week. I have the week off work so should be easier for me to stay within my calories as I wont have too many temptations.
Cian said he will buy me a goldfish if I get down to 14 stone by 4th May. So I have 3 weeks to loose 5.6lbs. 14 stone is my first goal, so now I have an added incentive to get there. :)
Wish me luck!
I weighed in this morning & I've lost another 2.6lbs taking me to 14 stone 5.6lbs. RESULT! :D Always good to get a loss on the scales me thinks & it motivates me even more.
Had a huge bowl of fruit & yogurt for lunch & I feel so healthy & good. I can start to see myself in the mirror now & I also have a natural smile rather than trying to fake it when people say 'smile'.
All in all a good week for me last week & hopefully an even better one this week. I have the week off work so should be easier for me to stay within my calories as I wont have too many temptations.
Cian said he will buy me a goldfish if I get down to 14 stone by 4th May. So I have 3 weeks to loose 5.6lbs. 14 stone is my first goal, so now I have an added incentive to get there. :)
Wish me luck!
Friday
Lettuce & plums
First of all I would like to add Lettuce & plums to my list of fruit n veg I will eat now. I'm not sure if I would go as far as to say I like them, but I will eat them.
I woke up one morning this week & thought about having a bacon Sandwich. Then I thought about what to have with it. Then I thought about Lettuce. So I went to the supermarket & brought some bacon & Lettuce as well as the rest of my weekly shopping. I was in the supermarket for 2 hours reading food labels & trying to get the lowest calorific products. By the time I got home it was nearly time for dinner, so I thought theres no point making the bacon sandwich now & to save it for another day. Instead I had a glass of Tropical Tropicana Multivitamins fruit Juice to keep me going & set about making dinner.
After dinner I decided I would have the bacon Sandwich for breakfast the next day & that is what I did. It was delisious. I only used a lil Lettuce as my brain was telling me I wouldn't like it, but I couldn't really taste it actually not with the wholemeal bread, butter & bacon tastes aswell. When I got home from work I had Lettuce with my Toad in the hole instead of the usual beans & actually ate a whole lot more than I did in the morning & again couldn't taste it. It filled me up too which I didn't think it would do.
The following evening I made cheesy pasta with Leeks & pancetta for dinner. Now instead of my usual 100g of pasta, Lots of cheese & sauce with tinest veg, I had 50g Wholewheat Pasta, 28g cheese portion of reduced fat cheese, 1/4 pint skimmed milk, tsp butter & wholemeal flour, 100g leeks, half a box pancetta, half a garlic bread & 80g Lettuce. This came out as about 657 claories, Although it might seen high to some people, I was impressed as I had everything I wanted to eat in that meal & it was less than 700 calories. Usually my dinners come to about that without the garlic bread so I never get to eat it. I thought this might me the case, hence why I limited the pasta to 50g.
Anyways tonight we have a guest joining us for dinner, soI am making a curry. I have Chicken, Carrots, Potatoes, onions, Rice & a reduced fat Tikka Masala Sauce as the ingredients. This will be the first time I am using vegetables in a curry, so I'll let you know what it turns out like. Wish me Luck!
I decided to ditch eating with the kids at Lunchtime at work & stick to bringing my own food for Lunch. I had an apple, Banana, Pear, Yogurt & tracker bar yesterday & an hour later I was thinking about food again. Not exactly sure what caused me wanting food an hour after eating. I actually think it was just the sight of food & if I managed to hold out til dinner without being starving then I must not of been hungry. Anyways I had a drink & felt better. Still wanted food, but not as much. After the food had gone & it was back to the stress of having kids running riot I didn't think of food, so it was possibly boredom that caused it. Anyways I managed to resist the urge to eat & held out til I got home to have my dinner.
Seeing adverts on TV for food today make me want to eat too I noticed. I am also at home thinking about what I can eat. My stomach is not hungry & still feels full, so I must be bored. Think I'll go for a walk. Might make me stop thinking about food.
I woke up one morning this week & thought about having a bacon Sandwich. Then I thought about what to have with it. Then I thought about Lettuce. So I went to the supermarket & brought some bacon & Lettuce as well as the rest of my weekly shopping. I was in the supermarket for 2 hours reading food labels & trying to get the lowest calorific products. By the time I got home it was nearly time for dinner, so I thought theres no point making the bacon sandwich now & to save it for another day. Instead I had a glass of Tropical Tropicana Multivitamins fruit Juice to keep me going & set about making dinner.
After dinner I decided I would have the bacon Sandwich for breakfast the next day & that is what I did. It was delisious. I only used a lil Lettuce as my brain was telling me I wouldn't like it, but I couldn't really taste it actually not with the wholemeal bread, butter & bacon tastes aswell. When I got home from work I had Lettuce with my Toad in the hole instead of the usual beans & actually ate a whole lot more than I did in the morning & again couldn't taste it. It filled me up too which I didn't think it would do.
The following evening I made cheesy pasta with Leeks & pancetta for dinner. Now instead of my usual 100g of pasta, Lots of cheese & sauce with tinest veg, I had 50g Wholewheat Pasta, 28g cheese portion of reduced fat cheese, 1/4 pint skimmed milk, tsp butter & wholemeal flour, 100g leeks, half a box pancetta, half a garlic bread & 80g Lettuce. This came out as about 657 claories, Although it might seen high to some people, I was impressed as I had everything I wanted to eat in that meal & it was less than 700 calories. Usually my dinners come to about that without the garlic bread so I never get to eat it. I thought this might me the case, hence why I limited the pasta to 50g.
Anyways tonight we have a guest joining us for dinner, soI am making a curry. I have Chicken, Carrots, Potatoes, onions, Rice & a reduced fat Tikka Masala Sauce as the ingredients. This will be the first time I am using vegetables in a curry, so I'll let you know what it turns out like. Wish me Luck!
I decided to ditch eating with the kids at Lunchtime at work & stick to bringing my own food for Lunch. I had an apple, Banana, Pear, Yogurt & tracker bar yesterday & an hour later I was thinking about food again. Not exactly sure what caused me wanting food an hour after eating. I actually think it was just the sight of food & if I managed to hold out til dinner without being starving then I must not of been hungry. Anyways I had a drink & felt better. Still wanted food, but not as much. After the food had gone & it was back to the stress of having kids running riot I didn't think of food, so it was possibly boredom that caused it. Anyways I managed to resist the urge to eat & held out til I got home to have my dinner.
Seeing adverts on TV for food today make me want to eat too I noticed. I am also at home thinking about what I can eat. My stomach is not hungry & still feels full, so I must be bored. Think I'll go for a walk. Might make me stop thinking about food.
Wednesday
Why I want to loose weight
Ok I have decided to make a list of why I want to loose weight. Initally I wanted to be thin & fit into a size 10. But now I have been doing it for a while my mind has been changed. I still want to be thin, but I'm siding more with the whole fitness & heathy side of things. so here is my list...
- I want to be happy.
- I want to feel healthy.
- I want to be fit.
- I want to feel sexy.
- I want to be thin.
- I want to live.
- I want a goldfish (which Cian has said he'll buy me when I get to my goal weight).
- I want to give up smoking (which I plan to do properly once I get to my goal).
- I want to be a healthy weight & not obese anymore.
- I want to see myself in the mirror not my fat stomach.
- I want people to praise me for my weight loss & see a new person at the end.
- I want to have confidence with my appearence.
- I want to look good in clothes.
- I want to be able to buy clothes in 'normal' shops.
- I don't want to feel ashamed about my weight anymore.
- I want to be able to show off my flatish stomach in summer.
- I want to look after my body.
- I want to be inspiration for others to loose weight.
- I want to look thin in my wedding photos when we get married in 2011.
- I want my children to grow up n be healthy when we have them.
I will update this list as I think of more things. Some of them I have done/felt already so am on my way! Woo Hoo!
Tuesday
The devil has gone down the plug hole!
If your squemish look away now!
U know I said it felt like I had the devil living in my nose the other day? Well it finally left my nose & went down my throat. I coughed & spluttered & this huge ball of brown phlem came out on my hand. It was bigger than the size of a 10p. I squidged it with my fingers & thought no wonder I couldn't breathe if that was up my nose. It felt hard in places. I went into the bathroom & turned the tap on. I put my hand under the water & then watched it run from my hand, round the sink a few times then eventually go down the plug hole. HA take that! I thought. I felt so much better after this & I could now breathe through my nose. Woo Hoo!
If you have read this & now feel sick then I'm sorry, but I did warn you.
I feel much better today. I slept all night without waking up cold or hot, so I guess my body is feeling better now. My throat is not so sore either & I can breathe. Not being able to breathe through my nose was the worst, as when I breathe through my mouth I can hear it & it sounds so weird n awful I worry if someone is going to tell me off for breathing too heavily or if Cian can hear the TV over my breathing. He never mentioned it, but it is now a relief that I can use my nose again & not have to worry.
Oh a slightly better note, I need a new bra. My bra is not supporting my boobs anymore now I have lost weight, but I'm scared to go & get myself measured. I have never been measured before. I used to just get a bra & hoped it fit! Do I have to get top half naked in front of strangers (coz that will just freak me out no end) or do they just measure around the bra I have on at the time? I think I need to go shopping with mummy. Think I'll give her a call tomorrow & ask her what happens. She will know what to do.
I made a delicious sheppards pie tonight for dinner. I cooked the potatoes then mashed them with a lil butter & milk. Next I fried an onion. Then cooked the mince & mixed in the onion, some carrots & kidney beans. I crumbled an oxo cube in for added flavour then transfered the mince & vegetables to an oven dish. I put the mashed potatoe on top of the mince & put it in the oven for 30 minutes & Hey presto! Bon appetite! Yum Yum Yum! Even the 'dreaded In-Law' thought it was nice, so now she is the 'not so dreaded In-Law'.
U know I said it felt like I had the devil living in my nose the other day? Well it finally left my nose & went down my throat. I coughed & spluttered & this huge ball of brown phlem came out on my hand. It was bigger than the size of a 10p. I squidged it with my fingers & thought no wonder I couldn't breathe if that was up my nose. It felt hard in places. I went into the bathroom & turned the tap on. I put my hand under the water & then watched it run from my hand, round the sink a few times then eventually go down the plug hole. HA take that! I thought. I felt so much better after this & I could now breathe through my nose. Woo Hoo!
If you have read this & now feel sick then I'm sorry, but I did warn you.
I feel much better today. I slept all night without waking up cold or hot, so I guess my body is feeling better now. My throat is not so sore either & I can breathe. Not being able to breathe through my nose was the worst, as when I breathe through my mouth I can hear it & it sounds so weird n awful I worry if someone is going to tell me off for breathing too heavily or if Cian can hear the TV over my breathing. He never mentioned it, but it is now a relief that I can use my nose again & not have to worry.
Oh a slightly better note, I need a new bra. My bra is not supporting my boobs anymore now I have lost weight, but I'm scared to go & get myself measured. I have never been measured before. I used to just get a bra & hoped it fit! Do I have to get top half naked in front of strangers (coz that will just freak me out no end) or do they just measure around the bra I have on at the time? I think I need to go shopping with mummy. Think I'll give her a call tomorrow & ask her what happens. She will know what to do.
I made a delicious sheppards pie tonight for dinner. I cooked the potatoes then mashed them with a lil butter & milk. Next I fried an onion. Then cooked the mince & mixed in the onion, some carrots & kidney beans. I crumbled an oxo cube in for added flavour then transfered the mince & vegetables to an oven dish. I put the mashed potatoe on top of the mince & put it in the oven for 30 minutes & Hey presto! Bon appetite! Yum Yum Yum! Even the 'dreaded In-Law' thought it was nice, so now she is the 'not so dreaded In-Law'.
Monday
OMG its working!
I have finally learnt to eat only 1 sausage roll & 1 doughnut from greggs the bakers & not 4 of each in one meal on the same day. I was hungry. I saw the bakers. I brought 1 sausage roll & 1 jam doughnut & I walked away. I got home then ate them. Savouring the taste. Afterwards I still felt a lil hungry so I ate a banana which filled me up. How on earth did I used to eat so much?
Now all I gotta do is apply this to everything I eat & I'm laughing. Wish me luck.
I can now fit into size 18 jeans comfortably & squeeze into size 16's at a push. This is very inspirational & now I feel I am doing well. I feel that I am making progress & its been worth doing it.
STOP PRESS - SOMEONE HAS NOTICED!
I mentioned to a work collegue I was tired as I went for a run the night before & she replied with yeah you look thinner. I can see it in your face. I then explained how much I had lost & she was like WOW!
Then I saw a friend I hadn't seen in a while & told him about my running & fitness programme I had set myself & he said he thought I'd lost weight too.
Both comments have motivated me to loose more weight now & to keep going & I bet that everyone will notice soon. That's my confidence coming through there! lol
Now all I gotta do is apply this to everything I eat & I'm laughing. Wish me luck.
I can now fit into size 18 jeans comfortably & squeeze into size 16's at a push. This is very inspirational & now I feel I am doing well. I feel that I am making progress & its been worth doing it.
STOP PRESS - SOMEONE HAS NOTICED!
I mentioned to a work collegue I was tired as I went for a run the night before & she replied with yeah you look thinner. I can see it in your face. I then explained how much I had lost & she was like WOW!
Then I saw a friend I hadn't seen in a while & told him about my running & fitness programme I had set myself & he said he thought I'd lost weight too.
Both comments have motivated me to loose more weight now & to keep going & I bet that everyone will notice soon. That's my confidence coming through there! lol
Sunday
Its now week 11 & I'm still here!
Well I've now lost 1 & 1/2 stone since I started on this weight loss journey.
Its week 11 & I'm still going strong. I finished the 7 week challenge I was doing. Boy was it a struggle, but I'm proud I did it. I earned myself a few stars for doing it too which I spent on getting a set of 1kg hand weights & a book called "The Amazing Adventures of DietGirl". The weights I am going to use when dancing in my living room & I read the book in 4 days. I loved the book & it has inspired me to keep going with the weight loss. It was about this woman who was 25 stone & how she battled the bulge to become literally half the woman she used to be & ended at around 12.5 stone. I laughed & cried throughout reading this book & I thought well if she can do it so can I. I have since found her online blog page which is what inspired me to write my own one & here it is!
I went out last week & treated myself to some new trainers. I brought one pair for everyday use & one pair for running. I also brought some running trousers which actually look good on me. I now feel like an athelete. lol
Its not been easy & I have strayed from the path a few times, but I seem to be able to get back on track as quick as I left it. I have still been learning along the way. I have got it in my routine to eat breakfast everyday. I do exercise 5 days a week. I have changed from white foods to wholemeal/wholewheat & I am trying new fruits & veg. I now like onions, kidney beans, chickpeas, tinned tomatos & leeks as well as carrots & peppers. I have swapped jars of pasta sauce to using tinned tomatoes & blend them into a smooth paste. I do a lovely chickpea curry which my other half adores after he told me he hated chickpeas. I brought some strawberries, papaya, mango & kiwi last week & made a smoothie in the blender. I didn't really like the taste so gulped it down in one go. Felt proud afterwards as I entered the fruit in my food diary & it came out as 3 portions. I had planned to do tortillas for dinner that night & already knew that the peppers & onions would be 2 portions & I had eaten an apple & banana already as well that day which too my total fruit n veg portions for the day to 8 & no doubt I would drink some fresh orange juice later on as well which would count as another portion! WoW I'm doing well.
Trying to drink 2 litres of water a day is a mission in itself! I am managing about 1-1.5 litres a day at the moment, but I just don't feel thirsty. I know I should drink more, but how can I cram it down my throat when my body doesn't want it? Well I took a litre bottle to work with me & I've been filling that up with water or squash & drinking it throughtout the course of the day. When I wake up I have a 250ml glass of water or Fresh Juice & then when I get home I try to drink at least 1 pint of water or squash. Now its getting hotter I will drink more coz I always do in the summer, but will this summer be different? Will I be as thirsty as usual as I'm eating more & I'm lighter than last year? Only time will tell as they say.
STOP PRESS - I AM SO ILL I CANNOT MOVE.
This is not funny anymore. I was just thinking the other day how I'd survived the winter (well since January anyway) without being ill & then what happens? It hits me tenfold. It started on Friday with body aches ending with a huge headache. I went to bed only to wake up during the nite freezing cold with a temperature of 38.9. I took some ibuprofen & slept til Saturday afternoon when I woke up so hot n sweaty. I got up. Big mistake. I could hardly move. My body ached by nose was so blocked I could hardly breathe. I made it to the sofa & took some more ibu. 10 minutes laterI felt really tired so fell asleep. After an hour I woke up feeling better. Was ok until Sunday when I felt crap again. The rest of the day was pretty much the same as the day before. Its now Monday evening & the body aches have gone. I have a sore throat & although some of my nose has cleared I can still feel the cold in there. I was trying to explain how I felt to Cian my other half & all I could say was it felt like I was possessed by the devil. It really felt like the devil had got inside of me & was living in my nose. I have never in my life felt this bad before. Not for so long anyways.
When I think about it though I have enjoyed being ill really as Cian has been so lovely & looked after me. Friday he brought me fish n chips, Saturday he brought me pizza, Sunday all I wanted was porridge as it was soft & I could swallow soft things. Luckily I was ill actually as these were the only meals I ate over the weekend so I stayed within my cals for each day. I can't believe I am ill & I'm still worrying about my weight loss. lol. I guess I am just really determined to loss weight afterall although I do question myself a lot about this.
Hopefully I'll be back to my normal fat cheery self soon & the exercise can commence again. I'm off work again tomorrow so hopefully another days rest will clear my nose enough for me to go back to work on Wednesday as I'm actually missing it! lol
Its week 11 & I'm still going strong. I finished the 7 week challenge I was doing. Boy was it a struggle, but I'm proud I did it. I earned myself a few stars for doing it too which I spent on getting a set of 1kg hand weights & a book called "The Amazing Adventures of DietGirl". The weights I am going to use when dancing in my living room & I read the book in 4 days. I loved the book & it has inspired me to keep going with the weight loss. It was about this woman who was 25 stone & how she battled the bulge to become literally half the woman she used to be & ended at around 12.5 stone. I laughed & cried throughout reading this book & I thought well if she can do it so can I. I have since found her online blog page which is what inspired me to write my own one & here it is!
I went out last week & treated myself to some new trainers. I brought one pair for everyday use & one pair for running. I also brought some running trousers which actually look good on me. I now feel like an athelete. lol
Its not been easy & I have strayed from the path a few times, but I seem to be able to get back on track as quick as I left it. I have still been learning along the way. I have got it in my routine to eat breakfast everyday. I do exercise 5 days a week. I have changed from white foods to wholemeal/wholewheat & I am trying new fruits & veg. I now like onions, kidney beans, chickpeas, tinned tomatos & leeks as well as carrots & peppers. I have swapped jars of pasta sauce to using tinned tomatoes & blend them into a smooth paste. I do a lovely chickpea curry which my other half adores after he told me he hated chickpeas. I brought some strawberries, papaya, mango & kiwi last week & made a smoothie in the blender. I didn't really like the taste so gulped it down in one go. Felt proud afterwards as I entered the fruit in my food diary & it came out as 3 portions. I had planned to do tortillas for dinner that night & already knew that the peppers & onions would be 2 portions & I had eaten an apple & banana already as well that day which too my total fruit n veg portions for the day to 8 & no doubt I would drink some fresh orange juice later on as well which would count as another portion! WoW I'm doing well.
Trying to drink 2 litres of water a day is a mission in itself! I am managing about 1-1.5 litres a day at the moment, but I just don't feel thirsty. I know I should drink more, but how can I cram it down my throat when my body doesn't want it? Well I took a litre bottle to work with me & I've been filling that up with water or squash & drinking it throughtout the course of the day. When I wake up I have a 250ml glass of water or Fresh Juice & then when I get home I try to drink at least 1 pint of water or squash. Now its getting hotter I will drink more coz I always do in the summer, but will this summer be different? Will I be as thirsty as usual as I'm eating more & I'm lighter than last year? Only time will tell as they say.
STOP PRESS - I AM SO ILL I CANNOT MOVE.
This is not funny anymore. I was just thinking the other day how I'd survived the winter (well since January anyway) without being ill & then what happens? It hits me tenfold. It started on Friday with body aches ending with a huge headache. I went to bed only to wake up during the nite freezing cold with a temperature of 38.9. I took some ibuprofen & slept til Saturday afternoon when I woke up so hot n sweaty. I got up. Big mistake. I could hardly move. My body ached by nose was so blocked I could hardly breathe. I made it to the sofa & took some more ibu. 10 minutes laterI felt really tired so fell asleep. After an hour I woke up feeling better. Was ok until Sunday when I felt crap again. The rest of the day was pretty much the same as the day before. Its now Monday evening & the body aches have gone. I have a sore throat & although some of my nose has cleared I can still feel the cold in there. I was trying to explain how I felt to Cian my other half & all I could say was it felt like I was possessed by the devil. It really felt like the devil had got inside of me & was living in my nose. I have never in my life felt this bad before. Not for so long anyways.
When I think about it though I have enjoyed being ill really as Cian has been so lovely & looked after me. Friday he brought me fish n chips, Saturday he brought me pizza, Sunday all I wanted was porridge as it was soft & I could swallow soft things. Luckily I was ill actually as these were the only meals I ate over the weekend so I stayed within my cals for each day. I can't believe I am ill & I'm still worrying about my weight loss. lol. I guess I am just really determined to loss weight afterall although I do question myself a lot about this.
Hopefully I'll be back to my normal fat cheery self soon & the exercise can commence again. I'm off work again tomorrow so hopefully another days rest will clear my nose enough for me to go back to work on Wednesday as I'm actually missing it! lol
Saturday
I want to run?!?!
Another 2lbs lost :D Woo Hoo!
I decided I would walk to the shopping centre instead of getting the bus. It took me about an hour to walk, but it felt good as I was doing something good for my body & a few weeks ago I could only just about walk to the end of my road let alone walk the 2 miles I had just walked. I felt a lil sore the next day but decided to walk to the shopping centre again. It only took me 45 mins this time. Progress!
By Monday I felt quite sore, but decided to go for a walk on my lunch break anyway as it would be dark when I got home & I don't like going out in the dark. I planned the walk & off I set. It was hard work to keep going & I forgot to take any fluids to keep me hydrated. By the time I got back I was so thirsty I felt I could collapse. I guzzled down 250ml water & felt much better. Here began my exercise programme for the week.
The rest of the week went ok & I manage 4 out of 5 days walking at lunchtime. I decide to take Friday off & go out Saturday instead as I'd have more time & energy.
Its a saturday morning & I'm reading through the posts on the forum of my weight loss website. I see lots of people are runners & I feel so full of energy this morning that I feel like going for a run. What? I hated running at school & now I want to run? Oh well gotta listen to my body. I make sure I eat a good breakfast & let it go down. I then get a bottle of squash & my walkman phone ready. I find a neckchain for the keys so I don't loose them. Put on my trainers & I'm ready & raring to go.
I get outside & its a sunny day which makes me smile. I put my music on & start to walk. I had previously read I need to warm up my muscles first so walking seemed to be working. When I feel ready I start to jog. It feels good so I pick up the pace a bit. I can only run between 2 lamposts before I have to stop & walk, but I am running & it feels good & I haven't run since seconary school & even then I was crap coz I never got proper training as to how to run properly. I run past some workman who smile at me. I smile back which actually made me want to run more. I daren't look behind me incase they are laughing, so I just keep going & it makes me feel good that someone smiled at me. I get a little past them & have to stop running so I carry on walking to the end of the road. I turn a corner then start to run again until I get to a hill going up. I walk up the hill then enter the park I had discovered last week when I had gone out for my first proper walking adventure. I walk around the park then walk back home. I run half way down my road then walk the rest. I sit on the wall outside our flat trying to cool down & catch my breath. After a minute I go inside & just flop on the sofa exhaulsted, but feeling so proud of myself & shocked for actually running!
On sunday I rest zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!
I decided I would walk to the shopping centre instead of getting the bus. It took me about an hour to walk, but it felt good as I was doing something good for my body & a few weeks ago I could only just about walk to the end of my road let alone walk the 2 miles I had just walked. I felt a lil sore the next day but decided to walk to the shopping centre again. It only took me 45 mins this time. Progress!
By Monday I felt quite sore, but decided to go for a walk on my lunch break anyway as it would be dark when I got home & I don't like going out in the dark. I planned the walk & off I set. It was hard work to keep going & I forgot to take any fluids to keep me hydrated. By the time I got back I was so thirsty I felt I could collapse. I guzzled down 250ml water & felt much better. Here began my exercise programme for the week.
The rest of the week went ok & I manage 4 out of 5 days walking at lunchtime. I decide to take Friday off & go out Saturday instead as I'd have more time & energy.
Its a saturday morning & I'm reading through the posts on the forum of my weight loss website. I see lots of people are runners & I feel so full of energy this morning that I feel like going for a run. What? I hated running at school & now I want to run? Oh well gotta listen to my body. I make sure I eat a good breakfast & let it go down. I then get a bottle of squash & my walkman phone ready. I find a neckchain for the keys so I don't loose them. Put on my trainers & I'm ready & raring to go.
I get outside & its a sunny day which makes me smile. I put my music on & start to walk. I had previously read I need to warm up my muscles first so walking seemed to be working. When I feel ready I start to jog. It feels good so I pick up the pace a bit. I can only run between 2 lamposts before I have to stop & walk, but I am running & it feels good & I haven't run since seconary school & even then I was crap coz I never got proper training as to how to run properly. I run past some workman who smile at me. I smile back which actually made me want to run more. I daren't look behind me incase they are laughing, so I just keep going & it makes me feel good that someone smiled at me. I get a little past them & have to stop running so I carry on walking to the end of the road. I turn a corner then start to run again until I get to a hill going up. I walk up the hill then enter the park I had discovered last week when I had gone out for my first proper walking adventure. I walk around the park then walk back home. I run half way down my road then walk the rest. I sit on the wall outside our flat trying to cool down & catch my breath. After a minute I go inside & just flop on the sofa exhaulsted, but feeling so proud of myself & shocked for actually running!
On sunday I rest zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!
Friday
I'm off!!
Woo Hoo my first 2lbs lost!
I am so proud of myself. Not because I have lost weight, well I am proud of that too, but because I actually came to my senses & decided to sort my life out.
I'm in week 3 now & I think I'm doing well. This weeks challenge is to eat fruit n veg. YUCK! Oh well gotta do it if I want to loose weight. I will start with what I know I like. Apples, Bananas & Pears as fruit n peppers & carrots as veg. Its going well so far & I'm managing to eat 5 portions a day. It was a struggle at first as I hadn't eaten any fruit for ages & my body found it hard to adjust but I'm getting there.
Walking is going great. I now walk up 2 hills to get to work & take the bus in between & vice versa on the way home. I am already starting to feel the benefits of doing this walking.
I am so proud of myself. Not because I have lost weight, well I am proud of that too, but because I actually came to my senses & decided to sort my life out.
I'm in week 3 now & I think I'm doing well. This weeks challenge is to eat fruit n veg. YUCK! Oh well gotta do it if I want to loose weight. I will start with what I know I like. Apples, Bananas & Pears as fruit n peppers & carrots as veg. Its going well so far & I'm managing to eat 5 portions a day. It was a struggle at first as I hadn't eaten any fruit for ages & my body found it hard to adjust but I'm getting there.
Walking is going great. I now walk up 2 hills to get to work & take the bus in between & vice versa on the way home. I am already starting to feel the benefits of doing this walking.
Thursday
Week 2
Well I've lasted on my weight loss journey for a week. I did not loose any weight, but I survived & I have learnt that I need to lower my calorie intake.
I am still excited & addicted to the website. This week I am doing Learning as a challenge. I have to learn about food & drink related things for 15 minutes a day 5 times a week. I chose to do this as I figured in order for me to loose weight or get healthy I would need to know how to do it, what food to eat, etc. I did this pretty easy & actually found that questions were coming into my head so spent the time answering the questions in my head which made me pass this weeks challenge.
I learnt that walking is a great form of exercise so I thought that the next day I would walk to the next bus stop to get the bus & get off the bus a stop early. Lets just see what happens.
I am still excited & addicted to the website. This week I am doing Learning as a challenge. I have to learn about food & drink related things for 15 minutes a day 5 times a week. I chose to do this as I figured in order for me to loose weight or get healthy I would need to know how to do it, what food to eat, etc. I did this pretty easy & actually found that questions were coming into my head so spent the time answering the questions in my head which made me pass this weeks challenge.
I learnt that walking is a great form of exercise so I thought that the next day I would walk to the next bus stop to get the bus & get off the bus a stop early. Lets just see what happens.
Wednesday
Judgement day aka Payday
The 24 hour free trial ran out yesterday & I'm so hooked on this site that anything so good must be worth paying money into doing it. Afterall you don't get anything for free these days do you?
Well I just got paid & you would think I'd be out partying or down the pub celebrating the start of the weekend, but no. I am sat at home staring at the laptop screen trying to work out which payment plan to choose. Do I pay the full year? Do I pay for 6 months? or Do I do it in monthly installments? If I pay for a full year or the 6 months & I don't keep up with the weight loss then I'll be wasting money, also do I have enough money to pay for a full year or even half a year at once? Conclusion answer no. So I guess I'll pay monthly. I set up a direct debit & hey presto I am on my way! As I entered the site again it feels more real to me now as I have full access. I set up a profile page & write a few words about me. I think all I wrote was I am here to loose weight & keep it off! Since then I have found more to say about myself, but that was the state I was in back then.
Well the first week I didn't really know what I was doing or how to use the site other than to fill in the food diary or read the forums. I signed up for a challenge which was going to last 7-8 weeks depending if I wanted a week off or not. The first challenge I chose was to fill in the food diary everyday seeing as I had already been doing that. I managed to do it pretty easy & thought I'd sail through the rest. How wrong was I?
Well I just got paid & you would think I'd be out partying or down the pub celebrating the start of the weekend, but no. I am sat at home staring at the laptop screen trying to work out which payment plan to choose. Do I pay the full year? Do I pay for 6 months? or Do I do it in monthly installments? If I pay for a full year or the 6 months & I don't keep up with the weight loss then I'll be wasting money, also do I have enough money to pay for a full year or even half a year at once? Conclusion answer no. So I guess I'll pay monthly. I set up a direct debit & hey presto I am on my way! As I entered the site again it feels more real to me now as I have full access. I set up a profile page & write a few words about me. I think all I wrote was I am here to loose weight & keep it off! Since then I have found more to say about myself, but that was the state I was in back then.
Well the first week I didn't really know what I was doing or how to use the site other than to fill in the food diary or read the forums. I signed up for a challenge which was going to last 7-8 weeks depending if I wanted a week off or not. The first challenge I chose was to fill in the food diary everyday seeing as I had already been doing that. I managed to do it pretty easy & thought I'd sail through the rest. How wrong was I?
Tuesday
The wake up call
I got a wake up call back in January 2008. Not by my phone, but by my chest. I started getting these awful sharp pains & then decided I should do something about my weight (as it was probably that which was causing them), but I did not know where to start.
A few days later I was playing spider solitaire on my new laptop & there was a programme about being overweight on TV in the background which attracted my attention. I don't remember exactly what caught my attention, but it made me do a search on the internet & I stumbled across a website called Weight Loss Resources. I signed up for a free 24 hour trial thinking I had nothing to loose & this best be a good site. I eagerly awaited an email with confirmation & followed the links. I entered my login details into the login page & entered the site.
There was lots of information, tools to use & articles to read. I remember thinking how on earth would I be able to take in all this information in 24 hours without having to stay up all nite & bunk off work the next day. I filled in my information as best as I could including my weight, height, age, sex, etc. Then it asked for a goal weight. I had never thought of a weight at which I wanted to be I just wanted to be thin. So I searched around on the internet for an ideal weight chart & decided I wanted to be at the bottom end of healthy about 9.5 stone. I typed this information into the site. Then I had to decide how much to loose each week. I wanted to loose as much as I could as quickly as I could, but the site would only allow me to loose 2lbs a week, so I choose that. Then I worked out my activity level & clicked save. I looked at the summary at the top of the page & it said i'd be at my goal weight by December 2008. I felt a lil down by that statistic, but thought about it & then realised that, that wasn't so bad afterall as it had taken me 27 years to get to the size & weight I was & only 1 year to get back down! Here begins my journey....
Next I clicked on the food tab. It brought me to a food diary page. I read the information on what to do & set about entering what I had eaten for the day. I found out I had eaten way over the calories I should of eaten & was shocked. I didn't even eat breakfast at the time so lunch & dinner came in at something around 2500 cals. It wasn't that I ate unhealthy food as I rarely eat take aways, it was just that I ate too much & had no control over portion size. After I had entered all the food I skimmed the other areas of the site, read a few stories from people who had lost weight on the site, then stumbled across the forum. WoW! I remember thinking I'm going to love it here! I read a few of the posts on the forum until it was time for bed.
Here ends my wake up call & I'm happy to report I have not had any chest pains since.
A few days later I was playing spider solitaire on my new laptop & there was a programme about being overweight on TV in the background which attracted my attention. I don't remember exactly what caught my attention, but it made me do a search on the internet & I stumbled across a website called Weight Loss Resources. I signed up for a free 24 hour trial thinking I had nothing to loose & this best be a good site. I eagerly awaited an email with confirmation & followed the links. I entered my login details into the login page & entered the site.
There was lots of information, tools to use & articles to read. I remember thinking how on earth would I be able to take in all this information in 24 hours without having to stay up all nite & bunk off work the next day. I filled in my information as best as I could including my weight, height, age, sex, etc. Then it asked for a goal weight. I had never thought of a weight at which I wanted to be I just wanted to be thin. So I searched around on the internet for an ideal weight chart & decided I wanted to be at the bottom end of healthy about 9.5 stone. I typed this information into the site. Then I had to decide how much to loose each week. I wanted to loose as much as I could as quickly as I could, but the site would only allow me to loose 2lbs a week, so I choose that. Then I worked out my activity level & clicked save. I looked at the summary at the top of the page & it said i'd be at my goal weight by December 2008. I felt a lil down by that statistic, but thought about it & then realised that, that wasn't so bad afterall as it had taken me 27 years to get to the size & weight I was & only 1 year to get back down! Here begins my journey....
Next I clicked on the food tab. It brought me to a food diary page. I read the information on what to do & set about entering what I had eaten for the day. I found out I had eaten way over the calories I should of eaten & was shocked. I didn't even eat breakfast at the time so lunch & dinner came in at something around 2500 cals. It wasn't that I ate unhealthy food as I rarely eat take aways, it was just that I ate too much & had no control over portion size. After I had entered all the food I skimmed the other areas of the site, read a few stories from people who had lost weight on the site, then stumbled across the forum. WoW! I remember thinking I'm going to love it here! I read a few of the posts on the forum until it was time for bed.
Here ends my wake up call & I'm happy to report I have not had any chest pains since.
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